Satisfactions → Becstin

Chapter 32

Edited: August 5, 2016
Og Posted: January 4, 2016

Becky's POV

I rush downstairs, hearing Austin yank his bedroom door open, making it hit the wall and I slightly jump.

"You know what? No! You don't get to do this, you don't get to decide to give my baby away because you don't think we can raise it. Because I know we can. So no, Rebbeca, you're not giving my baby away." He yells and I stop at the last step, turning around and I give him a sarcastic smile.

"See, this is why. This is why I want to give the baby up. We can't compromise on anything, how the hell do you want us to raise a child together? You're a fucking idiot if you think I'm letting this baby be raised by you and you're little squad of butt monkeys. I'm not fit to be a mother at this age and you're not fit to be a father because you're immature. So yes Austin, I can do this." I say, breathlessly and he looks at me with tears in his eyes and I sigh. "We can't keep this baby, Austin." I mutter and he rushes down the stairs, stopping in front of me and he sighs.

"Just think about it. Think about us and this baby and the joy. We can talk to our parents, explain the situation and be fine. We'll be fine. Give the baby a chance. Becky, in no time, you're gonna fall in love with this baby. I know and he knows it." He says, placing his hand right above my belly button and I feel the same fluttering in my stomach, just like before and I quickly place my hand above his.

"Can you- Did you feel that?" I ask and he gives me a confused look and I press his hand harder against my belly, as the fluttering continues and I watch his eyes widen.

"Wha-what is that?" Austin asks and I laugh, removing my hand and I feel a tear roll down my cheek.

"That's our baby moving." I say, with a laugh and he smiles at me, while he moves his hand around my belly as he feels around.

"Oh my god." He mumbles. "How can this not make you happy? You're feeling him move around inside you. How do you not feel the attachment?" He asks and I move away from him, sitting down on the couch and I rest my hand on my swollen belly.

"It's not that I don't feel happy, I do. I feel happy but I'm scared, Austin. I'm scared. I'm scared of failing the baby and getting attached would make that even worse to cope with." I say and I lean back, massaging the bottom of my belly and Austin kneels before me.

Austin lifts my top, pressing his lips against my belly and I watch him.

"What are you doing?" I ask.

"Bonding." He says, not looking up at me and he mumbles lightly against my skin and I sigh, running my hands through Austin's hair. "Have you had anymore bleeding?" Austin asks and I shake my head.

"No. I get to find out the sex in a few days." I say and his eyes light up as he looks up at me. "You can come, if you want." I suggest and he gives me light smile.

"Wouldn't miss it for the world. It's gonna be a boy, I know it." He teases and I smile before he presses his lips against mine and I place my hands on his cheeks as the kiss deepens.

"You're gonna suffocate her and the baby. Chill, man." Robert says and Austin pulls away with a smile and flips him off.

I wouldn't survive without these idiots and maybe neither would my baby but I couldn't risk it.

Austin's POV

"Stay for dinner." Robert suggest as Becky and I sit on the couch while she cuddles against me and she looks up at me.

She laughs lightly, looking at Robert. "What are you rats cooking?" She asks and Robert glares at her while I snicker and I place my hand on her belly again.

"Food. Are you staying or not?" He ask, rolling his eyes playfully and he looks at me. "God, you're like a girl, you're obsessed with that child." He says and I flip him off again.

"Fuck you." I mutter and he laughs.

"I'm kidding, Becky. That baby is gonna be cute. But seriously, he's like some hormonal bitch." Robert says and Becky bursts into laughter.

I look at both of them and I glare at Robert for being an ass and I stand up.

"Oh come on, he was kidding." Becky says, getting up to follow me and I ignore her. "Actually Robert, no, I'm gonna go home and look up some agencies again." I hear her say and my blood boils.

Didn't we just have an argument about this?

"Where the fuck do you think you're going?" I ask and she smirks at me lightly.

"Oh that caught your attention. Stop taking it up the ass, they're obviously happy for you that you've managed to be having a baby. So stop acting like you're so offended and be happy." She says and I scratch the back of my neck.

She stares at me and I stand in place, watching her as well and I sigh.

But how could I be happy when the chance of losing my baby was still on the table?

Becky's POV

"When do you plan on telling them?" Alex asks before shoving a fork full of spaghetti in his mouth.

I lean back against the chair, looking at Austin and he gives me a smile.

"I don't know, honestly. There's a lot to debate, a lot of things to be afraid of." I sigh lightly.

The boys nod and Robert gives me small smile. "It's gonna be okay, I mean you have us. He would be born into a family, I mean, that's what we are." He says and I bite my lip.

He was right. Through it all, I had them.

"I don't know. It's a huge responsibility. I'm not ready, he's not ready and I don't think you guys are ready to deal with a newborn. Especially the first few months." I say with a laugh and Austin places a hand on my thigh.

"Please, we'll be fine. Just let him and help him be happy, this baby could be a good thing for all of us. I mean, maybe Zach would chill the fuck out." Robert laughs and I smile at him.

I wish things were different between me and Zach but I knew he wouldn't be happy about it, none of it. And I could understand him but he had a girlfriend and I had a boyfriend, whom I was having a child with. So why now? Why after so long, I meant something?

"I'll think about it. I have enough time." I say and I go back to stuffing my face with spaghetti.

Would it be so bad? To keep a baby at this age? But my mother would freak, Michele would freak & especially my father. So maybe I had no way out.

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Im sorry for such a crappy chapter but I had a little trouble writing it and I'm saving the juicy stuff for the next couple chapters but I hope you enjoyed and I'll update soon.
I love you babies❤️

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