Once In A Lifetime (Katy Perry/John Mayer Fanfic)

Chapter Twenty-Six: All The Things You Are

"You are the Angel glow that lights a star, the dearest things I know, are what you are..."

"Sir, can you please tell us what happened in your own words once more for us?" The officer asked as I sat on the curb, shaking and in hysterics. This was an absolute nightmare... To say the least.

"Uh, she, I..." I tried to stutter out, but the shock was taking over. I'd just witnessed Katy in the most horrific car accident, and I was almost positive she didn't survive. And it's all your fault. If this never happened, if you never cheated on her, she wouldn't have gotten into this accident. She would still be alive if it weren't for you.

You're a murderer.

"It's okay, take your time," The officer smiled politely, the woman taking the time to give me a bottle of water and a thick blanket to wrap around my shoulders. I barely noticed the cold - how my body had turned blue, everything numb. It was as if I was paralysed... But that didn't matter to me, because the guilt was eating me alive. I'd spend the past twenty minutes, while waiting for the ambulance to arrive after calling 911, crying the harshest, most emotional, rawest cry I could imagine myself to.

Why wasn't it me? I deserved to die after what I did to her... Her life is on the line because of my unfaithfulness, of my cowardly attitude.

If only she knew how much I loved her, how I wish I could take it all back. How I wish I was the one in her situation right now.

"She... She left my home and was driving... I went to find her. I looked for hours, and, and I finally caught up to her..." I said, not sounding even remotely myself due to how scared and shaken up I was. The officer placed her hand on my shoulder, lightly giving it a squeeze. I guess she was used to this, after all it was her job. "And... And I tried to call her, and she picked up... And then her car went flying..."

I couldn't even finish the rest of my statement without combusting into further tears. I felt so weak, so broken. The love of my life was just in a serious accident, so serious her life might not be the same ever again.

If she's even alive.

"Thank you, John. Now if you like, you are welcome to assist us in the ambulance with the patient," She smiled, folding her notebook back over and sliding it into her pocket as she looked down at me. I didn't even feel as if I could move... I was so shocked. So upset, and hating every single thing about myself.

"Y-Yes... P-Please," I stated, trying to move my body up and off of the concrete curb I'd been sat on for God knows how long. The officer held out her arm, helping me up as I came to my feet, feeling ridiculously lightheaded, my body feeling like cement.

With the officer by my side, I was guided over to the ambulance, the red and blue mixture of lights making me feel sick to my stomach. It was bad enough observing a random accident on the road... And almost impossible to fathom when it's someone you love in that situation.

I dreaded seeing Katy... I tried to help. I tried to get her out of the car, but there was nothing I could do. I just had to sit, and watch. Watch her becoming closer and closer to death... If she wasn't already. I knew I had to quit thinking about it, before I had a major, major panic attack right here on the road.

This was the worst day of my fucking life. I wanted my Katy back... But that just wasn't happening.

I was carefully lead into the back of the ambulance, the amount of people talking to me almost making me feel faint and sick once more. My heart dropped as soon as my eyes laid on the figure laying lifeless on the bed, my stomach churning.