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Jinxx: Bulimia

TW. Kind of says in the title. Eating disorders. And self harm. Oh lord... Enjoy!

Y/N was slumped on the cold bathroom floor, trembling with cold and fear. Cold because she had nothing in her system. Afraid because she couldn't keep secrets from her best friend and flatmate, Jinxx. He didn't know about her... "problem". She didn't want him to know. The last time he found out about something like this, he broke down. She couldn't stand seeing Jinxx upset. Y/N always tried to look after him, but wouldn't ever let him help her. That's what upset him most. How she could sit there and give him advice when things got tough for him, but she couldn't help herself or let him in. Unfortunately, or maybe fortunately, depending on how you look at it, she wouldn't have to tell him about her bulimia.

Jinxx forced Y/N to eat some Y/F/M, but she couldn't eat much before she felt the urge to get rid of it all.
"Hey angel, are you alright? You don't look so good..." he asked tentatively.
"Huh? Oh uh yeah. I just need to go to the toilet a sec..." she murmured, barely keeping herself under control. He knew what was about to happen, so he waited until he heard the bathroom for open. He ran as quietly as he could up the stairs just in time to see Y/N lurched over the toilet bowl, emptying the contents of her stomach. Jinxx swallowed any tears building up inside of him at the sight of someone he loved being in so much pain and walked towards her slowly. He bunched her messy H/C hair up into a makeshift ponytail and held it out of her face. She jumped but couldn't turn around to see him with her body still trying to empty itself. She was only dry retching now, but couldn't stop. She felt warm liquid make its way down her face from her nose. But the nose bleeds didn't phase her anymore. She was used to them by now.
"Shit!" Jinxx cursed softly, seeing the blood on her face as she stood up slowly. She just made a noise of contempt and grabbed the toilet paper, clearing the crimson fluid from her pale, vomit crusted skin.
"Why the fuck did you follow me?!" She yelled, albeit feebly. To raise her voice properly was too much effort.
"Because I was worried..." Jinxx whispered, fighting to keep any tears down.
"Well don't!" This time Y/N did shout, causing her to faint. As she fell to the floor, Jinxx ran forward and caught her terrifyingly light form. There was vomit all down her baggy t-shirt, mixed in with blood. He picked up her body and placed her on the floor, propped up by the bath behind her. Jinxx hurried to the sink to grab a toothbrush and toothpaste and brushed her teeth. He cleaned off any sick or toothpaste on her beautifully fragile face.
"Ohh sweetie..." was all he could think to say, even if she couldn't hear him. It was the same as last time

~flashback~

"Why...? Why don't you just let me help you?" Jinxx whispered to Y/Ns limp and lifeless form. She couldn't hear him. She couldn't see him when he patched up the lacerations on her arm. Couldn't feel it when he cleared up her blood. And definitely didn't hear it when he said three special words. "I love you..."
As if she was waiting for him to say it, she woke up just seconds after his confession.
"What happened...?" She asked, her voice confused, tired and weak.
"I found you passed out in a pool of your own blood. With this in your hand..." he told her, holding a bloody, silver blade.
"Fuck..."
"Why don't you ever let me in?" Jinxx wondered, his heart slowly breaking.
"Because it would upset you!" She cried.
"Well seeing my best friend in a pool of blood scared the shit out of me! I'd rather you told me... told me what was wrong than have me find you like that. I didn't know if you were alive! How do you think that felt?!" Jinxx yelled, crying as he sunk down to his knees.
"I'm sorry..." was all Y/N said. He held her tight as they cried for a while before going to bed. He slept with her that night, not wanting her to be alone in the state she was. And wanting to be close to her before he lost the chance.

~end of flash back~

Jinxx felt slightly intrusive, undressing her and washing her. But it had to be done. It wasn't like they hadn't seen each other before. They were too close to care. But it felt different when she was unconscious. Once she was undressed and the bath was ready, he picked her up bridal style and placed her in the bath. As he washed her, he could feel almost every bone in her fragile little body. That's when he saw how thin she really was. All skin and bones. But still so perfect. So perfectly breakable. And he wanted to look after her.
Once she was clean again, he dried her and carried her to his bedroom, placing her gently on his bed while he went to find some clothes.
She woke up without him there. All alone and confused.
"Jinxx?" She whimpered, shaking because of the cold. But it wasn't cold. She just couldn't keep warm. It was then that she noticed she was just in a towel. Just as she was about to call for him again, Jinxx ran into the room with an oversized Black Veil Brides shirt and some shorts.
"Sorry... I uhh, I had to wash you and stuff..." he mumbled bashfully. He was so embarrassed and worried that she'd be offended.
"It's fine... thank you... for uh- for doing all that. And looking after me..." she whispered. She was angry at herself for being so selfish. All she had done was broke him again. It obviously hurt him to see her like this, but it never seemed to bother her until now.
"What kind of friend would I be if I didn't...?"
"Still a pretty damn good one if you ask me!" Y/N chuckled. Jinxx laughed back quietly, both of them afraid to break the quiet around them.
"I wish you'd tell me instead of me having to find you..."
"You said that last time," Y/N told him.
"And if this happens again, I'll say the same thing!" He yelled. "I'm sorry. I didn't... I didn't meant to raise my voice. I just care about you so much..." he added in a softer tone.
"It's ok. I deserve it," she said simply.
"Promise me, PROMISE ME, that you'll eat. Please!" He asked, his voice strong and firm, unfaltering despite the fear and sadness he felt.
"You know, if anyone else asked me that, I'd lie. I'd say "I promise. I'm so sorry." Like it was no big deal. But I can't promise that I'll just eat. Because it is a big deal Jinxx!"
"At least let me help you through it..." he whispered, his voice much weaker than once before. Tears staining both their cheeks, Y/N frowned.
"I promise that, with your help, I'll try and get better. That's the best I can do..." she offered. Jinxx just nodded, holding her close to him and smiled. "Why are you smiling, Mystic?" She chuckled. Though she wouldn't admit it, she felt like smiling too. She hoped that his smile was brought on by the reason she wanted to smile. Being so close to someone she loved. And knowing that he cared about her enough to want to save her.
"Because... I- uh... it's nothing..." the pale man gave up, too shy to confess his love to her.
"No it's not. Since when did we keep secrets from each other?!" She wailed, desperate to know what was worrying her best friend and true love.
"Since when?! You're asking me since when did we keep secrets?! YOU hide things from ME! I ALWAYS come to you when I need help! Do you? NO!" He screamed. Y/N wriggled out of his grip and stumbled to her room, tears filling her eyes and blurring her vision. She curled up onto her bed and cried. He was right. She always hid things from him. And she had the nerve to say that to him? She was wrong.
"Hey, kitten...? Can I- can I come in pl-please?" Jinxx stuttered through choked sobs. He was so angry that he'd upset her.
"Go away!" She screamed into her pillow. Still, the door creaked open to reveal a disheveled looking Jeremy. He stood awkwardly in the doorway, the hallway light illuminating his structured frame. Y/N screamed and threw her pillow at him, not because she was angry at him, but herself.  He caught the pillow and stood looking proud of himself for a moment before remembering why he was here.
"Scoot," he ordered. She did as she was told and made room on the bed for Jinxx. He tried to put an arm around her but she shook it off. "Don't be like that. Please. I didn't mean to make you cry. I-"
"It was me. What I said. Yeah, you shouting scared the shit out of me, but I'm angry at myself ok?" She barked, her tone cold and voice hoarse from crying.
"You were right. We don't keep secrets. Not anymore right...?" He asked uncertainly. She nodded and Jinxx continued. "I'm surprised you haven't noticed..." he mumbled. She cocked her head to the side, asking silently what she'd so stupidly missed. He raised his arm, motioning for her to come closer. She shuffled closer to him, nuzzling into his chest. He gently lifted her onto his lap and wrapped an arm around her waist. She giggled lightly, something he loved about her, and brought him back to what he was saying. "I just..." he stopped when he heard a small moan escape her lips. He had subconsciously started rubbing a hand up and down her thighs.
"Ohh... I see what your... trying to say..." she panted. He was confused as to how such a small act could affect her so greatly. But then it clicked. She felt the same! Now he had the confidence to tell her. He removed his hand from her skinny legs and moved it to caress her face.
"I love you! That's what I'm trying to say!" He giggled making her blush. Before she could figure out what was going on, their lips met, moving perfectly in sync and fitting together like a puzzle. He kept it short and sweet, licking her bottom lip as he pulled away. "And you feel the same!" He could hardly contain his happiness as the girl in front of him said the words that he'd only ever dreamt of hearing.
"I love you too!" She giggled, giddy with joy.
"Do you love me enough to eat...?" He asked hesitantly. He didn't want to ruin the moment, but he needed her happy. Y/N just smiled.
"I promise. No big deal. And I mean it," she promised. "Wait... what even are we now...?" She wondered quietly, almost not wanting him to hear her.
"B-be my girl fr-friend...?" He stuttered nervously.
"Yes..." she whispered as she reconnected their lips. And for him, she got better.

Yeah. Reeeeallllyyyyy long. Sorry! But I'm genuinely proud of this! I hope you guys all likes it. That's all I have pre prepared. So request stuff if you want more! I love you all. Stay happy! ❤️