Good or Bad?

Chapter 14: I understand

Dear the Luckiest person alive,

Congratulations. You get to live next to the most amazing and beautiful girl you will ever meet.

Lexi is unlike anyone you will ever meet. She is kind and sweet to anyone, unless you piss her off.

Im Luhan by the way. My dad owns a buisness in China, but came here to California for a few years. Here in Cali, is where I met the best thing thats ever happened to me. But, it is also the place where I made the worst decision of my life. Which is to leave Lexi behind.

Now if you, the new occupant of this house, have fallen for Lexi then you understand. You understand how it feels to fall for her and not have her.
That's how it was for me too.

She had a crush on this guy named Chanyeol. Even in our relationship she liked him. I was so jealous, but I knew that she just had a crush she couldnt get over. And I hope that since I am gone, that she is with him. I know how he feels for her too. He will treat her right.

Eventually, I will come back. I promise. I have some unfinished business with Lexi.

You have come to the end of this letter. And please, tell Lexi that I love her.

And I hope that if you love her too, she will feel the same.

Sincerely and yours truely,
Luhan

Im speechless after reading the letter. I had no clue Luhan knew that I liked Chanyeol. But what was really eating me was four words...

I will come back.

I have no clue when that was written but I know one thing. Luhan never breaks a promise...

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Jb has been a little silent since we read Luhan's letter. But if he knew about the box, then why did he react to the letter like that? He acted as though the letter was a threat to him.

"Was that the first time you have read the letter?"

" No. Ive read it a few times." He says. He sounds fine, but he wont even look at me.

"Jb what's wrong?" I ask concerned.

"Its nothing Alexandria." He said, adding emphasis on my name.

"Luhan used to call me that." I replied.

After I said that, Jb's expression dropped. He looked pissed off. Infact, the whole time we have talked about Luhan, he has looked mad.

And while we were reading the letter, he looked like he wanted to tear it to shreds.

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I stayed at Jb's for awhile until he fell asleep. But I wasnt going to leave without Luhan's box. I have a feeling if I leave the box here it will be burnt to ashes.

As I sneak out of the house and cross the yard, I stare at the box that I hadnt seen in 2 years...

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Im sitting with everything sprawled out on the floor. Everything from tickets to Disney World, to a ring from a gumball machine.

Every moment I spent with Luhan was a precious one. We slept together all the time. No, we didnt have sex. We knew we werent ready as a sophmore and junior in high school. But he would sneak over and and hold me until I fell asleep. He would comfort me when I miss my parents. Now im used to it. I havent seen them in a year...

Luhan was one of those mysterious yet beautiful people that just change your life. Before Luhan, I had depression issues, until one night...

One more cut. Just more...
I thought to myself. Taking showers always made my life easier to handle. This is the only place Luhan cant stop me.

I finally make that last cut, and suddenly the door is busted down. Before I can react Luhan yanks the shower curtain open and grabs my wrists. At this point I dont even care if Luhan sees me naked. I dont care...

"Stay with me Alexandria. Please."

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I woke up the next morning, my wrist bandaged. I felt something beside me in my bed. I turn over to see Luhan's angelic face centimeters from mine.

Suddenly startling me, his eyes flicker open. He just looks at me, as if he was never asleep in the first place.

We just stared at each other, until he pulled me into him and finally spoke.
"Dont you ever do that again. I cant lose you. You are way to beautiful and amazing to leave this world. Please dont do that ever again. If you feel unloved then let me love you."

And so he did... and I am eternally grateful...

Im sitting in my own puddle of tears thinking back to those times. Luhan saved me. Maybe that had something to do with me falling for him. But I still dont know. Luhan is just that type that loves everyone and gets the same in return.

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Im laying on the floor next to a picture of Luhan when the doorbell rings.

I slowly get off the floor, whining in the process, and march downstairs.

But when I open the door, it's Jb.

"You're stealing from me now?" Jb said with a smirk, tilting his head to the side. Damn, thats so cute.

I dont even reply, I just let him in.

"You know, I have thought a lot about Luhan's letter." He suddenly says, leaning on the wall. I dont know what this is that Im feeling. But suddenly it feels insanely hot in my house.

"Uhm- ha- what do you mean?" I say, trying not to sound awkward. But the way Jb is looking at me...it's dangerous.

"I understand what he means." Jb said, getting off the wall and walking towards me slowly. Im backing up the closer he gets to me. He is biting his lip. Oh god.

"Ive fallen for you Lexi." Jb finally says.

My back suddenly hits a wall. Jb puts his hands on both sides of me, making it impossible to escape.

He is slowly leaning in. As his face gets closer to mine, my eyes slowly close.

Finally, our lips touch and it's like fireworks are exploding. BLESSSSS.

I quickly wrap my arms around his neck, as he grabs my waist and pulls me against him.

Okay, this is definetely wrong after crying over Luhan, but it feels so right.

Now Jb and I are in a heated makeout session. God I hope nothing interreupts this.

Jb lifts me up and wraps my legs around his waist, and presses me deeper against the wall.

I break the kiss because I cant fucking breathe. Jb starts kissing my neck. God help me, for thou is about to sin.

Without me realizing, Jb has moved me to the couch with him on top of me. My hands trail down his chest, abs, and down to the hem of his shirt. God he is hot.
I pull his shirt up over his head and throw it on the other side of the living room. He gets off me and starts unbuckling his belt and sliding his jeans off while I am stripping as well.

He gets back on top of me and starts kissing down my torso, until he reaches the hem of my panties.

He then stops and looks up with a smirk.

"Welcome to my world, baby girl."

My butterflies became explosions that night.

Holy shit....