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Chapter 17: Not my right mind

I couldnt say anything.

I wanted to say what I have wanted to say for so long.

I just watched as Luhan walked towards me. His hand reaching out to stroke my cheek.

"Oh Alexandria, I have missed you." He whispered softly, then pulling me into a soft yet strong hug.

This was a feeling I hadnt felt in years. The feeling only Luhan was able to give me.

I didnt even notice I was crying until Luhan was wiping my tears away.

Nothing had changed. He still had the big brown eyes and an angelic face.

Luhan was still the same. Attractive as hell....

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Luhan and I were sitting at a table across from each other. It was very awkward since we couldnt look each other in the eyes. Well I couldnt look him in the eye. I could feel his stare.

"How long have you been back?" I decided to ask.

I cant look at him in the eyes. Something about him always makes me weak and vulnerable.

"A few weeks I guess." He replied. His voice is deep but soft at the same time.

I made the mistake of looking up only to meet his big brown eyes.

Luhan was able to swoon so many girls with his facial features being sharp and soft at the same time. He had a heavenly jaw line and cheekbones but the rest of his face was just described as an angel's.

"I said I would come back." He starts again. "I actually saw you around all the time. But, it just wasnt the right time." He said.

"So why decide it's time now?" I ask, meeting his eyes again.

"I didnt. You found me actually. I was just coming to get coffee." He said adding a small chuckle. His laugh. It captivated me for the longest time, and not going to lie, it still does.

But I cant think like that. Im with Jb now.

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Luhan and I talked for hours. We were laughing about old memories the whole time. I had forgot about Jb and the others, and I didnt even bother to check my messages. Luhan was able to make me forget everyone else in the world. But thats the issue, I forgot about Jb. I forgot about my feelings for him, as I am slowly falling for Luhan all over again...

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"Ha haaaaaa. Nooo it was your faulllt." I said, hicupping and slapping Luhan's arm.

I went back to Luhan's apartment for a drink. Yes, Im only a senior but im not in public. I only had one drink anyway. Okay....maybe a few more than one...

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I was so wasted that I couldnt even talk anymore. Luhan and I just stared at each other from across the room.

My vision was fuzzy, but I knew exactly what stare Luhan had. It was the same one I saw on Jb's face a few nights ago.

All I could think was, this is dangerous.

This is wrong.

But why does it seem so right.

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I was desperate.

I pulled Luhan's angelic face back to mine, crashing my lips against his again.

Luhan and I were making out.

I was searching my thoughts for a reason why I shouldnt do this. My only problem was. Im to drunk to remember the problem. Jb...

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I never saw Luhan as the rough type. He was always so kind and gentle.

He practically ripped my clothes off.
He was hovering over me, kissing my neck. I was honestly a mess.

I had never had sex with Luhan before, and now I realize what I was missing out on. Luhan is how he always was, and always will be....perfect.

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Ive had sex a few times now, but none of them have done me the way Luhan has. I dont know whether im too wasted or what. But something about Luhan, I dont know... makes everything 10× better than my time with Mark....or Jb.

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I wake up the next morning in an unfamiliar place, in an unfamiliar room.

Yet, I remember everything. And by everything I mean everything.

Now, what felt so right at the moment, I am hardcore regretting right now.

I jump out of Luhan's bed and quickly pull my clothes on.

"Lexi what are you-"

"I need get out of here." I say, pulling my pants up as quick as possible.

"To go back to your boyfriend?" Luhan said. Propping up on his elbows to look up at me.

He knew? He fucking knew?

"You knew that I had a boyfriend and you got me fucking drunk?!" Not going to lie, I am pissed as hell.

He just looked at me calmly.

"You got drunk on your own, and you wouldnt have done anything if you didnt want to." Luhan said.

I cant deal with this. He fucking used me.

I dont know what got into me, but I walked over to Luhan and slapped him right across the face.

This isnt the Luhan I knew.

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I walk out of his apartment and hike my way home.

Jb is sitting on my porch.

I walk to my door, ignoring Jb.

"Lex wher-"

I dont even let him talk before I have closed and locked the door.

I pull out my phone to make a call.

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"Hello, Lex?"

"Sara we need to talk. I have a problem."

"What is it?"

"Luhan is back."

Sara doesnt even reply, before she hung up.

All she had to hear was, Luhan....