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Chapter 63: Mixed feelings

"Okayyy." Mark said awkwardly.

We were all sitting in the waiting room and Jb, Luhan, and Sehun were giving each other dirty looks.

"You know what? Maybe we should go home and let Sara rest. C'mon Lex." Jb stood up, motioning for me to come with him. Should I?

"I left my things at your house, so how about come with me." Sehun suddenly said, standing in front of Jb.

Oh no.

"Oh yeah, well Lex left her things at MY house." Luhan said adding emphasis. Luhan stood in front of Sehun.

Luhan and Sehun looked like they were about to fight. Jb only scoffed.

This is retarded.

"Im not going home with any of yall." I said.

The three turned to face me, confused.

"Im going with Mark." I said.

The three boys groaned in unison. Mark just chuckled.

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"Did you see there faces when you said you were leaving with me?" Mark asked amused.

They looked pretty pissed.

"Im honestly just thinking about food. Its like 7 am and Im hungry as fuck." I said.

Mark just laughed before pulling into a Sonic.

"Ill get you whatever you want." Mark said, smiling.

Sara did well.

...

"So what do you think caused Sara to have a seizure?" Mark asked silently.

I turned to see Mark just staring at the steering wheel. The Mark that joked around earlier was just hiding how he really feels.

"I dont know. I was just talking to her, and then her eyes opened and tears fell out. Then..."

Mark just nodded.

Then we drove back to Mark's house.

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"You can sleep in the bed. I will sleep on the couch. Sleep as long as you want, Kelton is with my mom." Mark said, walking out of the room with a pillow.

I sighed and walked over to the bed. I was guessing that I was on Sara's side of the bed because her family picture was there.

I got in the bed and stared at the ceiling.

Okay, Im bored as fuck.

I looked in the drawer in the bedside table. In there I found a journal, and tons of pictures. Most of her friends, and Mark.

Then I grabbed the journal, and the page I turned to was from a few days before Sara gave birth the Kelton.

Well. Today was awful. Mark and Jb fought.

What in the fuck?

Jb came over and I convinced Mark to let me talk to him. Except he didnt want to talk, he was drunk. He kissed me and I could taste the alcohol. He said, "If I cant love Lexi then I will love you." He whispered.

Mark barged in right after Jb said that. Mark dragged Jb away from him and punched him in the face. Jb fell over and Mark just started kicking Jb in the stomach. I kept screaming at Mark to stop but he wouldnt. Mark finally stopped when Jb was coughing up blood. I sat there crying and Jb just crawled out of the room. Mark looked up to me and started apologizing, but I dont want to hear it. Jb was drunk and not in his right mind, Mark couldve killed him. Sometimes I am afraid Mark will hurt me, but he never does. I am just waiting for the day he will snap. Yet, not a day goes by that I dont fall for Mark all over again. He only gets mad and yells at me when I mention Jb. I dont know what he has against Jb.

What does he have against Jb? He is trying to steal you from Mark, damnit Sara.

I got up and placed the journal in my bag. I have more inspecting to do.

I sneak out through the window, deciding I dont want to be here when Mark wakes up.

So I do the only thing I want.

I call Luhan.

"Now you want to talk to me?" Luhan says annoyed over the phone.

"I need you to come pick me up, I dont know how to get home." I say, not answering his question.

"Where are you by?"

"Mark's house. I dont want to stay here." I said.

Luhan hung up.

I know he cant stay mad at me, or leave me alone.

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I few minutes later, Luhan's Audi pulls up beside me.

I sit inside next to a tired Luhan. He was in basketball shorts and a plain white tshirt.

"Where to?" He asked, not taking his tired eyes off the road.

"Your place." I said, not thinking.

I turned to glance at Luhan, he had a sly smirk on.

...

I walk into Luhan's apartment, and he puts his hand on my lower back and guides me to his room.

I walk into Luhan's room, and he stands behind me, moving my hair from my neck.

He starts to kiss my neck, and I just let him. He grabs the hem of my shirt and pulls it off.

He then reaches infront of me and unbuckles my pants.

"You know. I havent slept in over 24 hours." Luhan whispered in my ear.

"Its the morning now, and you know, id rather be here with you than at work."

I dont know why he is saying this. Luhan pulls my pants down, and I step out of them.

Maybe Sehun is right. Luhan probably does take advantage of me.

"But, stop believing Sehun," he started, suprising me by putting a shirt on me. "I dont take advantage of you, and you know better. Until you believe me, I wont lay a finger on you." Luhan whispers, walking in front of me and towards the bed.

Okay, now I feel bad.

Ive known Luhan for what seems like forever, and he has never gave me a reason not to trust him, well I dont know.

I walk over to Luhan's side of the bed. His eyes are open but he wont look at me.

I sigh and crouch down to his level.

He looks up now.

Ugh. I grab his face and kiss him, and butterflies erupt in my stomach. The last time I kissed Luhan and meant it was years ago, and here it is happening all over again.

Luhan pulled me to where I was laying on top of him. Then he flipped me over.