I lay next to Soda silently and in shock due to the harsh reality of my situation. I'm used to living under the suffocating fear that one stupid mistake could have me thrown out of the arms of my loving brothers, put of my home all faster than I could blink. I'm used to Darry staying up late worrying about me when I'm even five minutes past curfew, worrying that I wouldn't come home and he couldn't call the cops to find me. But, somehow, it's like a slap to the face every single time someone brings up my living situation. Why would they take me away from people that love me the most, take me away from the home that I've lived in for my entire life just to give me away to a bunch of strangers? Darry and Soda are doing the best they can, they're still learning how to adjust to life without parents too. It's not fair to me, to my brothers, to anyone really. It's hasn't even been three years since our parents died! No fourteen year old should have to watch as everyone he holds closest falls apart and no fourteen year old should have to pick up the pieces of not only his own life, but the shattered lives of everyone around him. I'm now 16 and I still can't cope with that. I was scared to lose the ones I loved the most.
Now, at sixteen, I have to watch as my brother struggles to navigate through everyday life without a high school education, without a job, without a leg and with emotional scars so deep I don't think he'll ever be the same again. My other brother is a guy who hates his job, who hates his social status, and whose family drags him down. Steve and Two-Bit are changing so fast that I don't know what to think about them anymore and I have a best friend who can't get out of her abusive relationships. My other best friend died barely a week ago! How can I leave at a time like this? No one is okay anymore. Darry's eyes go wide and he pulls the doctor into the hallway and I feel Soda shiver next to me. Taking a deep breath, I vow that today would be the day I would start putting things back together again.
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Shattered
FanfictionI ponyboy Curtis, have tried my hardest to live a normal life. I tried to move on from the death of Johnny and Dally, but I couldn't after soda left for Vietnam. He left and came back but my life was already spiraling out of control. Can I pick up...
