Everything About You ➳ l.p

4} True Colors

♡ Emily's POV ♡

I can't get Liam off my mind... He's all I think about now... I can't help but think about him. I don't want to be in a love story... But unfortunately I can't help my feelings.

I have to admit I like him... I really do... It's just that I'm afraid to put my heart at risk again. I'm afraid that it will end badly.

If I don't get into a relationship with Liam, my heart can't get broken. If I don't get into a relationship with Liam, my life will be the same nightmare I'm living now...

I grab a dark blue hoodie and pull it over my shirt. I zip up the zipper to my stomach and put my phone into my pocket. I slip out of my baggy pajama pants and tug on some tight skinny jeans.

I pull out my phone and open up my twitter. I don't ever remember a time when I used social network on a regular basis... Oh wait! Before Mckenzie... I never let my parents bother me before. But now it just adds on to my endless depression.

I cut again last night... I couldn't make up my mind about Liam. I kept telling myself I don't deserve him. I had to. I had to tell myself that he doesn't love me.... I don't want him to... But me telling myself that made me feel like I was telling myself I'm worthless... Which I am.

That's why I cut... Because I'm worthless. Because no one cares about me. Because I feel like everyone hates me. The worst things in life come free to us right?

I noticed that Liam had followed me. So I quickly followed him back and locked my phone. I slipped on my black converse, unlocked my room door and walked out.

I grabbed my binder off the counter and headed out the door. I walked down the quiet street and stared at the cracks. I started to get lost in my thoughts.

What happens if me an Liam fall in love with each other? What happens if one of us gets heartbroken? What if I ruin his career?

I stopped dead in my tracks. What if I ruin his career? That question jumped around inside my brain. If I keep ignoring him I could potentially ruin his career... If we get together and break up, I could ruin his career...

I don't want that... I don't want to end his career. He's so good at what he does. He loves what he does. I'll never forgive myself if he sulks onstage. If he's sad the fans are sad. That's how a band crumbles...

I shook my head roughly and marched forward. I wanted to keep Liam out of my mind until I had to face him. Until I had to talk to him.

As I entered the doors to my school I quickly shuffled to my locker. For once trying to avoid Mckenzie... I grabbed my book and shut my locker. I spun around only to run into a preppy Mckenzie. She pushed me to the floor.

"Hey freak! What's happening today?" She laughs and pops her gum like a rich snob.

I stayed quiet. I just wanted to stay on the ground and crumble...

"Normally when someone asks you a question you answer it!" She yells and kicks me in the hip.

I whimpered in pain and my hand shot to my throbbing hip. I backed up until my back was pressed against the lockers.

"Aw! I'm sorry... Did that hurt?!" She sneered.

I looked down to the dusty tiled floor. I wanted this to be over... I don't want to deal with this anymore.

"I thought I asked you a question freak?!" She yelled and raised her fist.

Her clenched fist plummeted towards me and collided with my shoulder. I cradled it with my other arm as a tear drops down onto the tile.