Everything About You ➳ l.p

24} Back Into Bad Habits

♡ Emily's POV ♡

I cuddle in closer to Liam as we relax on the couch watching a stupid ad on the telly. My legs stretched out on the couch over Harry's lap. Niall on the chair next to me and Liam. Louis and Zayn sitting on the floor.

"Someone flip the channel! These ads are putting me to sleep..." Niall complained.

I laughed and grabbed the remote off the table in front of the couch. I changed the channel and Greece was on the film station.

"Ooh! Leave it!" Louis shouted and instantly focused on the screen.

"Lou! We watch this film all the time!" Zayn complained.

"Who cares I love it!"

I laugh as Zayn sticks his tongue out at Louis. Louis returns the gesture by copying Zayn as he crosses his arms and faces back to the telly. I payed attention to the screen and it's up to the point where Sandy is on the swing singing Summer Loving.

That is always one of my favorite parts although I could never relate until now. Even though I always thought that I loved Dylan it wasn't until the day that I'd had enough, that I realized I didn't. I was scared of him, scared of what he'd do to me if I broke up with him, and scared of being alone...

Is that why I never broke up with him through all the beatings? Because I was afraid of being alone? I thought I could learn to love him even though he left bruises on my skin. I thought I could help him stop. I didn't want him to hurt any other girls besides me.

All because I thought I deserved it... I was stupid for thinking that he actually loved me. He just wanted something to own and I was so stupid for falling into his trap.

I'm glad that I broke up with him though. The bruises still haven't gone yet but they're slowly fading away. I try not to look at them in the mirror but sometimes I can't help it. It's a constant reminder of what I had with Dylan, which was nothing now that I think about it.

After him I was all alone. I was scared of the dark again. With the dark, came nightmares. With my nightmares came screaming and crying. Normal parents would come rushing into the room hearing the scream of their daughter in the middle of the night. But not mine. They'd always scream at me to shut up and threaten to make me sleep outside.

It's hard to love someone who is disgusted by your existence. But somehow, I still miss them. I haven't realized it until now. But I do miss my parents, even though they're probably glad to have me out of the house. I was just taking up space anyway...

Liam shifted behind me bringing me back into reality. He put a hand on my shoulder rubbing up and down my arm gently. His touch clears my mind. It's so soothing it can just make me forget anything for that moment.

There's a knock on the front door and Louis hops up to answer it. Everyone looks in that direction as Melissa skips through the door.

"Oh boys! I invited Melissa over! She should be arriving right about now." I announce and Melissa giggles.

"Thanks for the heads up Emily." Zayn says in his sarcastic tone.

"You're welcome!"

I sit up and Liam follows me as Melissa sits beside us. She waves her eyebrows at me and I give her a playful shove. She laughs in response.

Niall hops up just as Louis sits back down. He hurries into the kitchen and disappears behind the swinging door.

"Good he's gone! Let's gossip about him!" I whisper.