Just the two of us (book 2)

Chapter 42 What about the future?

"I wanna do something tonight." I say to Marshall as I try to find something to wear. He's laying on bed and it's about 4pm, I've just woke up and Marshall has been awake for a long time, he's just been downstairs talking to Rachel because he didn't really need any sleep.
"What do you wanna do?" He asks me.
"I don't know." I say. I do know what I wanna do but it's not that easy to go on a date with Marshall since the whole world is so obsessed with him, so we can't be anywhere without being bothered. His girls still doesn't know about us so we can't take the risk of being caught in public, Marshall doesn't want the girls to find out that he has a girlfriend from the tv and I totally get that.
"Then it's pretty hard to do something baby." He says.
"It's pretty hard to do something with you." I say as I put on a top.
"I know baby." He sighs and pulls me down on the bed to cuddle with him. I lay down next to him with my back against his chest and he just cuddles me up in his arms. "I'd like to take you on a date but that's just not a thing we can do right now, you know." He says. I'm not mad at Marshall or anything because I've made the choice myself to be with him, but that doesn't mean that it isn't hard sometimes and I already knew it would be that, I was prepared for it.
"I know." I say in a low voice.
"Are you mad at me?" He asks me and I feel his lips brushing over the skin on my neck.
"No I just wish we could go out or something." I say.
"Me too baby." He says and there's a moment of silence before he speaks again. "What did you have in mind?" He asks me softly.
"Dinner, the movies or something like that." I say.
"What about renting a movie and eat some take out?
I know it ain't anything fancy but it's the best I can do right now." He suggests. I don't know why he has the need to impress me because all I care about is to be with him, I don't expect us to go on some fancy restaurant or something like that, it would just be nice to get out of the house.
"It's perfect." I say. Even though I wanna get out then I just appreciate him trying and I should just be glad that he's here.
"I've been meaning to talk to you about something." He then says and I turn around to look at him because his voice is now serious.
"What?" I ask him.
"Would you ever consider to move back to Detroit?" He asks me.
"I don't know, at least not right now." I say. I don't know if I could ever see myself live in Detroit again, I mean I know I have to consider it if it lasts between me and Marshall, honestly I still think there's too many bad memories in that city.
"I ain't never gonna leave Detroit." He tells me which I already know.
"I know." I say.
"So you know you'd have to move to Detroit?" He asks. Is he asking me to move to Detroit now?
"Are you asking me to move?" I ask him confused.
"Not now but you know that it would be necessarily in the future if we have to stay together." He says.
"Why are we talking about this already?" I ask him. He knows I don't like when he's being pushy and it kinda feels that he's being like that now. Non of us can predict what's gonna happen between us in the future, so why not just enjoy what we have now and then talk about this moving thing if we get there?
"Because if you already know now that you can't move back to Detroit then it ain't gonna work." He says. His words actually make me sad even though I already knew it, but it hurts that it doesn't take more for him to say that it can't work.
"It's just.. My life is here." I say.
"So what you're saying is that you can't move?"
"I didn't say that." I say.
"Then what did you mean?" He asks.
"That it's not gonna be easy." I say. I have nothing in Detroit besides Lucas, Marshall and the guys. I already know for sure that Rachel won't go with me and Melissa is my best friend and I'd have to leave her too.
"I feel you but you can visit here as often as you want and you can even go with me when I'm going here." He says. I already knew that but I don't have any job there and besides I have really bad memories in Detroit, it seems like Marshall forgets that and right now he's just being selfish of his needs.
"But I don't have a job in Detroit." I say.
"You've plenty of time to find one since you ain't gonna move right now." He says. It would be nice to live together with Marshall, it was all we dreamed of when we were younger but why does everything has to be so damn complicated? Detroit is a great city and I have so many good memories there but God knows that I also have about the same number of bad memories, but should I really let my past stop me and Marshall from being happy? It's not like he's asking me to move in with him right now, so I have time to get ready to this mentally because it's gonna happen someday.

Later

Marshall phone rings as we lay in the bed cuddling and talking.
"Yo." He says when he picks it up. "It can't wait?" He asks the person on the phone. "All right, I'll be right there." He says and hangs up. You don't have to be an idiot to figure out that he has to work now and it bothers me when we don't have much time together, but I can't complain because I signed up for this myself.
"That was my manager. I have to go to the studio real quick to finish some shit on 50's album, apparently they moved his release date so we're kinda busy." He says and stands up.
"Will you be back?" I ask him and he looks at me with a confused look.
"I thought you were coming with me?" He asks and my body gets warm, I really like that he wants to bring me along with him.
"Oh.. Of course." I say not doing a very good job at hiding the fact that I'm surprised. Marshall pulls me up from the bed so I'm standing face to face with him, our noses are almost touching each other from being that close.
"You thought I would let you stay here?" He asks me brushing his nose against mine. He looks right through me knowing what I was thinking.
"Well.. It's just.. It's work, so I didn't expect to come along." I stutter.
"I need something good to look at while I work." He says with a smirk. His lips are brushing against mine so I give in and kiss him.

We get to the studio and we only just get there before 50 arrives. Marshall and him give each other shoulder hug and a handshake when they say hi, they share a few words before 50 then looks at me.
"Good to see you again girl." 50 says smiling.
"It's good to see you too." I say politely.
Marshall and 50 quickly move on to business and they sit down and begin to do their thing. I'm just watching them and most people would find it boring but I don't mind starring at my man like this. Marshall looks so hot when he works and doing the thing he loves the most; making music, it's hard to explain but he just looks so happy and satisfied in his own special way and the way he smiles and laughs right now because him and 50 are joking around, just makes it more enjoyable.
"Yo Amelia I just thought about something." 50 suddenly says and he turns around to look at me, before he speaks again. "You own Club In, right?" I get a lump in my throat because it hurts so much to answer that question.
"Not anymore." I say. I try not to show him that the question affects me.
"What?" He says as his voice goes high. "Why not?"
"My ex fiancé forced me to sign over the clubs in his name when I cancelled the wedding." I tell him honestly.
"Then what now?" He asks me.
"Now I work at another club." I say.
"I hoped that you still ran Club In because I hoped you could make me a good offer on renting the VIP." He says.
"I can do that at the club I'm working at now." I say.
"Which club are you working at now?" 5o asks.
"SinZ." I say.
"I've heard some good shit about that club too." 50 says.
"Then maybe we should take a night out at SinZ." Marshall now says. I know he wants to go with 50 because it's a good opportunity for him to see where I work, I really don't mind because that just means I can see Marshall some more.
"Then I'll arrange that. What day did you have in mind?" I ask them as I find my calendar in my bag.
"What about next Saturday?" 50 asks Marshall.
"Are you at work there?" Marshall asks me and I nod my head yes. "Then next Saturday it is." He says and I write it down. I already know that Dan is gonna be thrilled about the fact that I've gotten Marshall to rent the VIP.

When we finally drive home then I just look forward to come home and cuddle with Marshall on the bed watching a movie.
I catch myself starring at him like a crazy person while he drives, he's just so hot and the best thing is that he's all mine. Rap music is blasting through the speakers as he just has his eyes on the road not even noticing my stare.
"Do you know how much I love you?" I ask him. Do you know how words sometimes just slips out of your mouth without even thinking it through first? Yeah, it just happened. Marshall chuckles as he looks at me short before returning his eyes to the road again.
"What makes you say that all so sudden?" He asks because it's very unlike me just to say things like that.
"I don't know, it just felt right." I say honestly and he chuckles again.
"But no, I don't know how much you love me." He says and looks at me shortly and adds; "Tell me."
"Let's just say that you're all that I've ever wanted." I say.
"Really?" He chuckles and looks at me. "That's really all you got?" He knows that I'm not good at explaining my feelings, so he always tries to push me and this is the situations where I like that he pushes me, because I need to be more open about my feelings.
"I can't see how it would ever be possible for me to live without you again, I don't think It could ever be possible for me and I ain't gonna find out whether if it could be possible for me or not. I'm really glad that we found each other again and I'm just looking so much forward to our future together." I then say. I see a big smile appears on Marshall's lips as he rubs my thigh.
"You're fucking amazing baby." He says.