Just the two of us (book 2)

Chapter 14 Broken hearts

After I've called Marshall I just stand there on the sidewalk waiting which gives me time to think. Have I been that bad of a friend? Why the fuck would Lucas roll with this? I mean, he should support me! I can't believe that Tasha said that shit about me not caring for Detroit because I really do, I just had to be ready mentally to face the haunted memories I have here. I'm so glad that I have reunited with Marshall and the boys because without specially Marshall I wouldn't have had the guts to confront James and Rachel would still live in that shitty house with a monster. Maybe Tasha is jalousie? Trust me I don't wanna think like that but why would she have a problem with me speaking about my success and boyfriend if she weren't jalousie? How the fuck could she call me corny? If anyone is corny then it's her!
Marshall is finally here and I just hop in the car without saying anything.
"Well I'm guessing that it didn't went good." He says as he begins to drive.
"She's such a fucking uptight bitch." I mumble.
"What's her problem?" He asks.
"I don't even know." I just say. Mostly I don't wanna talk about it but I'm actually honest when I say that I don't know what her problem is, because it can't be that she has a problem with my new life.
"I'm here if you wanna talk." He says.
"Will you please just drive me home?" I ask him and my question makes him look at me.
"Why you wanna go home?" He asks.
"Because I'm really tired Marshall." I bite at him.
"You can sleep at my place." He offers.
"Will you just drive me home?" I ask him annoyed about the fact that he can't just do as I say.
"You fucking promised me that you would come back with me afterwards." He says angrily.
"I know but now I really just wanna go home." I say.
"It's your fucking last day in Detroit tomorrow, don't you wanna spend time with me?" He asks me.
"Of course but can't you just pick me up tomorrow? I promise you that I'll spend the whole day with you tomorrow." I say.
"Fine." He sighs and no more words are spoken on the way to the hotel. I know that Marshall is disappointed but I'm really in no mood to be hanging out and having fun right now, it's really for his own good because one wrong comment and I'll bite his head off. "What time shall I pick you up tomorrow?" He asks me as we park outside the hotel.
"What time do you want to pick me up?" I ask him.
"At 1?" He asks and I just nod.
"That sounds great." I say and kiss him, it was suppose to be a short kiss but Marshall holds the back of my neck and kisses me eagerly.
"Are you sleeping at my place tomorrow?" He asks me when he breaks the kiss.
"Yes." I say. I know I shouldn't but come on it's my last day here in Detroit. We kiss one last time before I head into my hotel and up to my room.
"What's up?" Melissa asks me as I enter the room. I look at the clock, damn it's already 9:52pm.
"It's been a fucking long day." I sighs trowing myself on the bed.
"I'm guessing that it didn't went that good with Marshall then." She says.
"We had sex." I say hiding my face in the pillow and I can hear Melissa gasp.
"Amelia!" She bursts out.
"Please don't judge me." I mumble down in the pillow and I don't even wanna look at her.
"No I'm just curious how it could be a long day then." She says. I know she's trying really hard not to judge so I look at her.
"Well for starter I visited Bugz." I say.
"Oh sweetie." She says rubbing my back.
"Then I found out that Lucas is fucking my old best friend Tasha, remember I told you that I asked Lucas for her number and he told me he weren't in contact with her?" I ask her and she nods. "Well apparently she hates me now." I say beginning to tell her about our argument.
After a long talk with Melissa about my day or mostly about me having sex with Marshall I head to Rachel's room too see if she's up. I knock on the door and it opens, Rachel stands there looking like shit and I can she has been crying.
"Oh Rachel." I say hugging her while I close the door behind me. Honestly I've just been waiting for her to break because I know she really loved James, I can't even imagine how it feels to love a man you find out is a terrible monster.
"I know you don't understand.." She cries and doesn't finish before I cut her off.
"Hey I understand Rachel, you loved him and this is so unexpected for you so of course it hurts." I say.
"It hurts and I don't know how to remove the pain, this is torture." She cries. I feel so bad for her and I hate that this is kinda my fault but she loved what she thought he was and I couldn't let her do that.
"Love is a bitch." I say because I experience right now how big of a bitch it can be.
"What am I gonna do now? I got no money or a home." She asks.
"Hey don't you think about that. You're coming with me to New York and I'm gonna get you an apartment, you just have to focus on getting better." I say and we move over to the bed.
"I love you." She says.
"And I love you." I say and hug her.
"How was your day?" She asks me.
"No we should talk about you." I say because I don't want the whole thing to be about me.
"Please let's talk about you, it makes me forget." She says.
"Well my day has been complicated." I say and she gives me a questionable look. "I visited Lucas today." I say.
"How is he?" She asks.
"I don't know because I'm so angry with him. Apparently he sleeps with Tasha and he didn't even bother to tell me and yeah by the way Tasha hates me." I explain.
"What?" She asks and her eyes widens. "Why?"
"I don't even know she just said that I didn't give a fuck about the people who helped me in the past and I only cared about my clubs and Kevin." I cut a long story short.
"That was unexpected." She says and I just look down. "Did you and Marshall talk things out?" She asks.
"Yes." I say and look at her with tears in my eyes. "I cheated on Kevin." I say.
"Did you have sex with Marshall?" She asks me and I nod my head. "Oh honey.." She says and hugs me.
"I told him that I love him." I cry even harder now.
"What did he say then?" She asks.
"That he loves be too." I say. "I can't leave Kevin and I can't stop thinking about Marshall, I literally don't know what to do."
"You can't have them both sweetie." She says.
"I know but I can't drop everything that me and Kevin have build but I can't resist Marshall either, besides Marshall makes me feel things that Kevin can't." I say.
"What you and Marshall had was special and I know I haven't met Kevin or seen the two of you together but the fact that you can cheat on Kevin must explain that Marshall is the one." She says.
"Rachel his life has chanced so much and I don't know if I can be a part of his crazy life. Like when we were at the cemetery today to visit Bugz we couldn't be there for long because he was afraid that someone would take a picture, then there's all the girls which is around him all the time on the clubs and tour, I've seen them and I can't compete with girls like that." I tell her.
"So you don't trust him?" She asks.
"It's not about that it's about him living a crazy life that I can't adapt to." I say.
"So you're just gonna give up because his life is a little more complicated now?" She asks.
"No but I made a promise to Kevin, Rachel." I remind her. "And I love Kevin."
"Maybe you should take some time away from Marshall to see how strong your feelings are about Kevin." She suggest.
"I was planing on that, that's why I'm gonna spend the day tomorrow with Marshall and then head home on Friday and see how I feel towards Kevin." I say. It's gonna be hard specially because I know Marshall won't leave me alone.