Just the two of us (book 2)

Chapter 99 What just happened?

It's very late before Marshall walks into the living room and I just sit on the couch watching tv, I've been waiting for him and now that he's here then I don't know what to say. He has his hands in his pockets and he leans against the doorframe, I can tell that he's still angry.
"I don't even know what to fucking say." He sighs.
"May I explain?" I ask.
"You love Kevin, what is there to explain? You came straight about your feelings." Marshall says.
"I love you Marshall and I chose you but Kevin was still the man I was gonna marry. My feelings don't just disappear for him because I actually loved him but that doesn't mean that I would run back to him or anything, I.."
"If we broke up, you would." Marshall cuts me off.
"Marshall, I chose you because I love you. I left him because I wanna be with you." I say.
"But you still love him." Marshall says once again.
"I didn't left him because our relationship was bad because it was actually great and we were doing good, but I left him because I met you and I've always loved you." I explain.
"I can't.. I can't look at you as the same anymore." Marshall lets his hands run down his face.
"What? It shouldn't be you who say that Marshall! I catch you one lie after another." I get angry with him now.
"I haven't lied to you since that shit with Jenny." He frowns.
"So you're still sticking by that lame story?" I ask.
"You don't trust me. Fuck you." He says and he turns around and he's about to walk away.
"You came in here to talk to me." I say which makes him turn around. "You can't just walk away because I say something you don't like."
"You're accusing me of being a fucking drug addict!" Marshall raises his voice now.
"No I never accused of that, I accused you of lying because you've done it before." I say.
"I told you the truth but apparently the trust ain't there Amelia." He says. "I thought we were starting over but right now you're ripping up shit that we agreed to put behind us."
"Promise me you're not addicted." I say.
"I promise you." He says. "I promised you that it's just sleeping medication and I ain't even taking them anymore."
"Fine." I choose to believe him.
"Fine?"
"I believe you." I assure him.
"And then you think all's cool?" He frowns.
"No." I say as I know the Kevin thing is nagging him.
"You need to drop the club and the contact with Kevin." Marshall demands as I already knew he would.
"I will." I say and he seems surprised by the look on his face.
"Why are you suddenly agreeing to this?" He asks.
"Because I've been too stubborn and selfish this time, okay?" I admit.
"You don't say." He says rolling his eyes.
"Marshall I'm sorry." I say getting up from the couch.
"A sorry ain't gonna help much right now." Marshall says and I walk towards him. "You've been such a two faced bitch Amelia." I stop right in front of him and this is where he uses to pull me closer to his body, but he doesn't this time and it hurts.
"You have nothing to worry about because I only wanna be with you." I say and let my hand slide down his arm.
"You were at his house and at his club, you were behind closed doors alone. How can I be sure that nothing has happened?" He frowns.
"Have I ever been that type of girl?" I ask getting a little upset now.
"Like you've said; a lot changes in 8 years." Marshall says. "And you did cheat on Kevin." I can't believe that he uses that against me now! I've really tried to keep my cool and stay calm but this is enough.
"Did you really just say that?" I ask and back away from him.
"It's the true." He says coldly.
"You knew that I had a fucking weakness for you and you used it against me! I tried really hard not to let it happen because I'm not that kind of person but like always; you get it your way and you manipulate me into shit and then you apparently use it against me!" I get really angry now.
"I didn't manipulate you into doing shit." He laughs sarcastically.
"Fuck you Marshall, fuck you!" I say. "I will do a lot of things for you but I refuse to stand by bullshit." I say and I wanna walk out of the living room but Marshall grabs my arm.
"Stand by bullshit?" He frowns.
"You're so mean when you're angry and you have no idea how much and how long it hurts when you say something. I can't do it." I say. I wanna be with him so badly but he just crossed the line by saying that. Recently he fucked up real bad and still he has the guts to throw that shit in my face.
"You can't blame me for being angry and mistrust you after what I just found out!"
"That makes us equal so you have no right to throw that shit in my face Marshall!" I serve it to him. "I'm still fucking broken after what happened with Jenny so don't act like you're a saint! At least I didn't cheat!"
"I guess I'll never know." He says coldly.
"Maybe I should just sleep with him then you'll at least have some hold in your words." I say rolling my eyes.
"I should fucking slap the shit out of you right now." He hisses and his eyes turn pitch black which scares me. He pushes me against the doorframe harshly and I don't know if he's really lost it against me now. I sink the big lump in my throat when he grabs my hair and turns me around, I have no idea what his intentions are. I wanna believe so badly that he doesn't wanna hurt me but right now I have my doubts. I feel him pulling the fabric of my sweats and pull them down with my thong. What the fuck is he doing?
"Marshall.."
"Shut up Amelia." He hisses and he begins to rub my clit.
"Marshall wha.."
"Amelia shut the fuck up." He hisses. "I'm so fucking angry with you so shut the fuck up." It's not like I don't want him to do this but it's just that I can't make any sense out of it. I shut up because I know now that he has to do this, I remember why we had angry sex when we were younger and it was because Marshall was on the edge to hit me. He enters me when he knows I'm ready and he trusts hard immediately. He grabs me around the throat with one hand and dig his nails into my hip with the other hand as he just fucks me hard. He's so rough with me and it's clear that he's really angry because he gives me no mercy. I like it, it's better than to fight with him and it's better for him. At the same time I can feel this is all about him and not about me, I can feel that he's chasing his own high and he doesn't give a fuck about my satisfaction but it's okay, I like to satisfy him.
He finishes and then he pulls out of me.
"I need to clear my head." He says and begins to walk through the house. First I say nothing as I watch him walk down down the hall and he has already dragged his sweats up. I don't understand this because this is very unusual, usually when we've had angry sex then Marshall is more calm and ready to talk, he never leaves me behind like this.
"What?" I finally say and drag my sweats up. I run after him through the house being sure that I will catch him before he reaches the front door. I reach him just before the front door but he doesn't seem to care at all. "Marshall?" I say and grab his arm when he grabs the doorknob, but he just gets out of my grip and walk out to his car. What just happened?

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