Just the two of us (book 2)

Chapter 63 He's not coming

It has now been a day since Marshall left and it irritates me that I don't have a phone, I know I was the one asking him to leave but I reject that now, I was just angry and now I really need him.
"Does Marshall come by today?" Mona the nurse asks me. Mona is a really sweet old nurse in the age of 57 and I like her, she doesn't care that Marshall is a big celebrity but she cares about me. I've been using her a lot to talk with, maybe it's because she's such a mother figure, I don't know. I trust her in some weird way and I've been talking to her a lot about my past.
"I don't know, we got into a fight yesterday." I admit.
"About what honey?" She asks as she now sits down on the chair next to me, like she does when she knows that this is gonna take long.
"He wants me to move in with him and when I turned the offer down, he apparently got the feeling that I wasn't interesting in moving forward in the relationship." I explain to her.
"Why don't you wanna move in with him? I thought you were head over heels in love with him." She says confused.
"It scares me." I say. "Even though we've known each other for ten years then we just started dating 3 months ago, I have all my friends and I have my aunt in New York, I just can't leave them behind. Besides this city reminds me of so many bad things and I'm afraid of feeling alone in Marshall's big house when he's on tour or things like that." I explain.
"Yes I understand that sweetie." She says and lays her hand over my hand. "Maybe he stops by today, don't you think?" I think she's trying to calm me down but after how Marshall reacted yesterday and after the intentions I left him with then I don't know anymore.
"I don't know Mona.." I sigh. "I think he thinks we're broken up."
"Why?"
"Because I threw him out of here and I told him that I couldn't be with a guy who doubted me." I tell her and she just looks at me, I can see that she has no idea what to say but that's okay, I'm just glad that she wants to listen to me. "And honestly, he said something yesterday which I find difficult to forgive." I'm still in shock about the fact that he kinda blamed me for the charges.
"And you're sure he didn't just say that thing in anger?" She says and I like that she doesn't even ask what he said.
"I know he did but he shouldn't had said it at all." I say.
"Amelia." She says. "If Marshall lived in New York, would you then move in with him?" She asks me and I think about it.. Would I? I just left Kevin 3 months ago and me and Marshall are just starting to get to know each other all over again. We've changed a lot and there's a lot of things going on in Marshall's life, we have to built some trust before we can really take any moves. We're in love right now, why can't we just enjoy it?
"I don't think I would." I admit.
"So what are you really afraid of honey?" She asks me. What am I really afraid of?
"I just.. I'm not afraid of living with Marshall but I'm terrified to live with Eminem." I say.
"You have to explain that to me." She says sounding confused.
"I know Marshall, I've known him since I was a teenager but I don't know Eminem, I've only had him in small doses so far. Eminem is the one who leaves me because he simply has to, Eminem is the one being loved and worshipped by thousands of women and I'm just so afraid that Eminem is gonna trouble our relationship. I've seen what Eminem did to Kim when he was doing a song about her." I explain to her.
"But Eminem and Marshall is still the same person, you can't just put the bad decisions on Eminem." Mona says which she's right about but it's just easier.

Me and Mona talk for an hour before she has to go back to work. I'm just waiting for Marshall to come back but as we reach dinner time I begin to have my doubts.
Suddenly it knocks on my door and I begin to feel happiness spread inside me until I see it's only Deshaun, not that I'm not happy about him being here but I just really hoped it would be Marshall.
"Hi girl. How are you feeling?" Deshaun asks me as he walks towards my bed.
"Better." I say smiling. I just feel like asking if he has heard from Marshall but I also think it's a little rude.
"That's good to hear." He says and he sits down on the chair. "When are you getting out of here?" He then asks.
"In about 2-3 days." I say.
"Dope man." He says and he leans back in the chair and he begins to chuckle. "Damn just ask me Amelia." He knows..
"Have you talked to Marshall?" I ask him even though I assume he has.
"Yeah I stopped by his house today man and it wasn't pretty." He informs me and I get confused, what has he done?
"What do you mean?" I ask.
"Dishes were broken and your clothes was spread all over the bedroom." He informs me. "What the fuck is going on?" He asks and it surprises me that he doesn't know. I can't help thinking if Marshall has ruined any of my stuff, I swear I'm gonna kill him then!
"What did he say?" I ask him.
"Nothing much man, just that you guys where done." Deshaun says and just when he says that, it feels like I just broke into thousands of pieces, he considers us as done? "What the fuck is going on man? You two are acting crazy man."
"Apparently we're done." I begin to cry.
"Hey." He says and takes my hand. "You know how the motherfucker gets."
"So that's why he hasn't shown up today? He considers us as done." I ask.
"Yo he told me that you broke up with him." Deshaun says so apparently Marshall did tell him a little more than that.
"I just asked him to leave." I say.
"Why man?" He asks confused.
"Because he blamed me for the charges." I say.
"Yo.. You gotta tell me the whole motherfucking story from the start cus that shit doesn't make sense." Deshaun says confused.
"Marshall wanted me to move in with him and when I refused then you can guess how he reacted." I say.
"Oh shit." Deshaun sighs as he rubs his hands on his face, he knows exactly how Marshall reacted. "How the fuck did you came across the court cases?"
"Well he said that I didn't make any sacrifices in this relationship which pissed me off because I've sacrificed everything, so when I asked him to leave because you know how I get when I get angry, then Marshall apparently didn't think it was reasonable of me to kick him out when he has two court cases hanging over him because of me." I explain and Deshaun shakes his head. I'm so glad that Deshaun can see why I got angry.
"I'm gonna whop his fucking ass." Deshaun hisses as he stands up.
"Now?" I ask him confused.
"Yeah."
"But you just got here? I haven't had visit the whole day, can't you at least stay for an hour?" I beg.
"Yeah.. Sure.." He says and sits back down.