Just the two of us (book 2)

Chapter 100 Lights on

I'm in total shock about the fact that he just left, I'm in shock by his behavior and I can't recognize him at all. It's not odd for us to have angry sex but it's odd for him to leave and I feel kind of used. Usually we're kissing and are all good now but how he's acting now is just cruel. Maybe we just can't make it work? I thought he would understand how serious my warning is but he doesn't, he doesn't understand that he's on probation still. Marshall has changed and I knew that our relationship was gonna be a challenge but not like this. I thought that other people would make it a challenge but this is Marshall himself who makes this a challenge. Marshall has way too much going on in his life and maybe a girlfriend doesn't fit in? I just know that I can't do this, I can't handle him hurting me anymore and him not taking me serious. I walk upstairs and pack my things so I can be ready to leave tomorrow, this time I'm gonna catch a flight to New York.
When I'm done packing then Marshall still hasn't come home so I decide to go to sleep.

I wake up by the light which being turned on, I try to focus but the light is so light that I can't see anything.
"Turn off that light." I mumble as I cover my eyes.
"You packed your suitcases." Marshall says but he still doesn't turn off the light.
"Not now Marshall." I beg him.
"You're fucking leaving me." He laughs in the 'I can't believe you' sarcastic kind of way.
"Can we talk about this tomorrow?" I ask.
"Do you think I can sleep when I get home and find my girlfriend's things packed?" He asks me.
"Marshall.. I just wanna sleep." I whine.
"We just fucked before I left and now you wanna fucking leave me?!" He raises his voice now.
"No you had sex with me." I just mumble.
"Come again?" He asks and I look at him now.
"You fucked me and then you just left. Are you aware how used I felt? Are you aware of how sad I got?" I frown.
"What the fuck? I've done it like that so many times before Amelia!"
"No! You've never left me like that afterwards!" I yell.
"Are you aware of how much I've had to take in today? First I find you snooping around, then you accuse me of being an addict and then you told me that you still love Kevin. I needed to clear my fucking head." He tries to justify his way of behaving.
"Marshall, you've turned into a person I don't even know anymore." I say.
"What is that suppose to mean?" He frowns.
"Fame has turned you into a fucking asshole." I say.
"Just hours earlier you wanted this to work, what the fuck is going on with you?" Marshall is clearly confused.
"You're too difficult Marshall, there's always drama with you and I can't handle it!" I raise my voice.
"I told you this was gonna be a fucking challenge." He says.
"You make this a fucking challenge." I correct him.
"Suddenly it's all me? Me who's the fucking problem?"
"No, we were both stupid thinking that this was gonna work." I say.
"I don't fucking get you sometimes." He sighs. "Why do you have to be like that?"
"Like what?"
"A chaotic bitch." He says which makes me roll my eyes.
"Then it's a good thing that I'm leaving tomorrow." I say.
"Are you moving in with Kevin?"
"Why do you care? I'm just a chaotic bitch?" I ask him.
"I do fucking care because I don't want you to leave!" He says frustrated.
"And I don't wanna talk about this right now, I really wanna sleep Marshall." I say.
"How can you sleep? Is it really that little I mean to you?" He asks.
"No but I'm done worrying about this." I say.
"Baby please.."
"Don't baby me Marshall, not after the way you treated me." I say.
"Treated you?" He frowns.
"You don't get it, do you? You fucked me and then you tell me that you need to clear your head, that's not okay! I've never felt so disgusted and used." I tell him.
"That was not my intention baby, you know I would never make you feel like that." He softens up.
"Well you did." I say coldly.
"I was just so angry Amelia.. You know how destructive I get when I'm angry." Marshall says and he now sits down on the bed next to me.
"And you think it's fair that I take all the bullshit every time you act like that?" I ask him as I want him to understand that it's not something that he would stand by.
"I know I'm difficult to be with." Marshall sighs.
"That's not what I asked." I say strictly.
"No I don't think it's fair but I also don't think it's fair that you're still in love with Kevin." He says.
"That's why I promised to stay away from him and end the partnership with him." I say.
"It doesn't change the fact that you're in love with another man."
"I was already in love with him before we became a couple. Did you expect my feelings to be all gone for him?" I frown.
"Yeah.. Actually I did." He shrugs and I become silence because I don't know what to say. "Please don't leave Amelia."
"Marshall.."
"Don't sound so serious." He cuts me off.
"But this is serious." I say. "You don't get how serious it is, you don't get that it was serious with Jenny and you don't get now how much damage you can do to another person. Today has been totally crazy, you spit me in my face and you don't think what that does to another person. To spit on someone is the most disrespectful thing you can do and you did it to your girlfriend, that's crazy."
"You told me you loved someone else." Marshall defends himself.
"Do you think that justifies your actions?" I frown.
"I'm sorry, okay? You're right.. Today has been crazy but you know we're doing great besides what's happened lately." Marshall says. But will we ever be good after all this shit that has happened? Can we just get over it and move on?
"Yes we are but I can't just forget what has happened." I say.
"I'm not asking you to." He says. "You haven't been a saint today neither."
"No I haven't." I say. "Marshall.. Please can we do this tomorrow?"
"Can I sleep in the bed with you?" He asks. I should say no but he gives me such comfort and safety and I don't sleep as good as I do with his arms wrapped around me.
"Yes but it doesn't mean that I've changed my mind." I say. Marshall doesn't say anything, he just stands up and take his clothes off before he gets in the bed with me. I'm so confused....

I'm sorry for the short chapter guys! Please vote and comment :)