One Damn Cold Night (Boyxboy) is Being Edited and proofread

Chapter 50 returning of haunting memories

Dylan Pov

My mind wasn't quite there when Lucas was giving me a head. My mind was hearing this voice again a voice from the past which was only a few weeks ago. 'Feel his breath on you while thinking that you betrayed me.' I shot up, breathing heavily. Lucas looks up at him, "You alright?"

I nodded my head, which was a total lie. I do not know how to handle this or how to tell Lucas. I wanted to tell Lucas at this moment, but I am worried he will get upset about me thinking about my uncle while he is giving a blow job.

'That's right think of me like that. Think of me while your boyfriend is sucking you.' Rayson hissed in my mind, 'Think of me. Think about what I did to you.' 'Remember the times we had at my mansion?' 

I put my hand on my forehead it was starting to get warm probably from what was happening. 'Or is it because of me? Because I'm here in your mind. Become one with me?'  'Never!' 'Become like me. Your father died, and your mother left you making you live with me. Your heart supposes to be dark and cold. Your heart and light suppose to be blocked from each other.' 

Lucas looks up at me and climbs back to my lips, and kisses them. I kiss back. 'It's...it's because someone cares for me other than you.'  'I gave you stuff. That was worth a lot of money you ungrateful brat!' 'Which you gave me as a reward for having sex with you.'  I put my arms around Lucas's back. I want to hold him close, to feel him close. To breathe in his scent. His hair smelled of the ocean breeze. My hand trailed down to his underwear. 'Go ahead, touch him. Yank on it. Make him beg for you.' I listened to Rayson this time and took off the cloth that hid his member and let them fall to the ground. I look down at his penis. I stroked it with my hand. Lucas breathed and put his head on my shoulder. "Do you know what you're doing to me?" he breathed in my ear.

I gasp and took my hand away; maybe he didn't want me doing this? 

Lucas grabs my hand and brings it back to his penis. I gasp, "I want this can't you see?"

"But-"

"I didn't mean to question you about what you are doing, like what you probably thought. It's...just...I was surprised. Don't stop. I like it."

I put my head on his shoulder to hide my face while I stroked him. 'He wanted this?' 'Of course, he did. Now work for your hands as I did to you.' It's like someone else is controlling my hand. I could hear Lucas breathe heavily against my ear as he latched onto my neck, which made me gasp. 'Please don't tell me he is giving me a hickey?'  I blushed at this as I felt him sucking and biting my neck, which made me moan.

"I need help on when I should enter you. Cause I don't know what I'm doing, really?"

I wanted to laugh at how cute he is asking me this. Luckily my face is on his shoulder, so he didn't see my smile while blushing my face off. I replied back with, "Let me prepare myself first, then?" 

Lucas looks into my eyes, confusion written on his face, "What do you mean?"

I blush at this and look anywhere but his face, "My fingers need to prepare for you."

"Oooh, that, OK then please do?" he gets off of me. I look down at his member hood. Even though I find him really sexy, I didn't say it out loud since I am not that type of person. Probably be awkward for both of us if I did. "May I watch? And I will make myself ready to enter you?"

I gasp with a blush, "What are you going-" before I could finish the sentence, Lucas' hand went around his member and started stroking. I gulped at the sight and look down at my entrance. I look down at my hand and then back up at Lucas.

"Would you like me to turn around while you're doing that?"

I look down and shook my head, and close my eyes as I spread my legs. I put one finger inside me, which made me gasp in pleasure. I put finger number two in and formed the scissors. I look up at Lucas, who is closing his eyes and stroking his member. 

"You ready?" he asked.

"Just a little longer. Do you have any liquids? That will not make it so rough?"

Lucas nods and reaches over to his nightstand drawer. He takes out a bottle that says lube and a condom. "Why not make it rough like, I did to you?" Because I hated it. When you did, it was rough for me, and it was very painful. Never again.' "I'm...ready...now?" I breathed, taking my fingers out.

Lucas nods and takes the condom out of the package, throwing the wrapper on the floor and the condom on the base of the head. 

"Let me?" I offered, seeing him shaking. Lucas nods and went over to me. He hands me the condom, and I placed it on his head and slowly stretched it over. 

When the condom was placed correctly, I told him to move down to my entrance. I put my legs around his back.

Lucas looks into my eyes and then at his member, "I don't know what I am doing?"

I understood what he meant, and I guided his member next to my entrance. He put lube on his hand and massaged his member with it. He nods at me and told me he is ready for me to guide him more. I grab his member, and with two deep breaths, I guided him inside me. I gasp with pain and told him not to move till my body is relaxed. I took in his thing by breathing and relaxing my muscles while I was adjusting to it. I look up at him and nod, "Now push slowly inside me." Lucas nods and pushes himself more inside me, "now, go all the way," Lucas looks up at me, confused, "push in all the way," I told him in a way he could understand. Lucas nods, and in a few seconds, he was all the way inside, "now slowly pull out, then back in again. Repeat it for a minute."

One minute passed, and my body is now adjusted and now receiving pleasure, "Now pull out halfway, then back in and repeat. I will tell you when I want you to go fast."

Lucas nods. I reach up for him, and he responded by holding me in his arms and had me straddled on his lap as he pushes in and out. I gasp and moan. "Yeah, that's the way to do it," I breathed as I put my head on his shoulder. 

"It...feels...good," Lucas tries to say, "really...good."

I smile at his shoulder and nod, 'For me too,' I thought. But all the while he is doing this to me, Rayson was haunting my mind. I want the haunting to stop for so many days and nights now. I got pills for sleeping through the night from a student from class that is a bit of a friend with Cain. The pills help cause me to get dreams that are pleasant and be able to sleep through the night. "F..as..t."

"What?"

"Go fast now?" I said into his shoulder.

Lucas pumps in me fast and hard, which is just what I wanted. I breathed into his shoulder, letting out a moan and more moans, "Please...take...me?"

Lucas lays me on the bed and pounds into me. I felt comfortable and calm. I want him to release me cause I'm close. I never once touched myself; that wasn't a lie when I told him unless you count washing it. I reach down to my member and put my hand around it, stroking it.

Lucas grabs my hand. I open my eyes as he brought my hand up to his lips and kissed it. I blush. He puts my hand aside and grabs my member. And strokes it. I gasp and moaned till my stomach had white liquid on it. I blush and reach for a tissue on his nightstand.

Lucas grabs my hand, "Wait?" he whispers as he breathes heavily as he closes his eyes, "till I come," he breathes as he fell onto my shoulder, breathing heavily next to my ear, "that...was...amazing, babe."

I got dressed and kissed him goodnight. Walking back to my room, but first, I will take a long shower.