One Damn Cold Night (Boyxboy) is Being Edited and proofread

Chapter 10

After that night I couldn't sleep. Couldn't eat. I try going to class but he was there the one that I couldn't see anymore. My back aches still and it hasn't healed even a little bit yet. How dare he use that whip on me like I was some piece of meat! I took pills to ease the pain. It still hurts but I could stand and walk to classes. I avoided Lucas' gaze when I came to History class. You know what its better this way. It gives me peace being away from him and today is Friday so it will be back to Rayson.

Lucas was making it easy for me. He hasn't spoken to me since I told him that we can't talk anymore. He avoids my eyes when I look at him. Even though I felt peace from him I couldn't help but feel a loss in my life. I am pretty damn tired and couldn't concentrate on my classes except P.E which woke me up a little bit. I lost weight from not eating much and gone to drugs and alcohol. I take more pills then I actually should but it helped me with my head hurting, my stomach feeling nauseas. A few pills to numb the pain in my chest. Pills for my back.

I look his way. 'Why do I feel this way?' I look away and focus on what the teacher had on the board. I will do homework during lunch.

Lunch— He was only two tables away. Then I remember what Rayson said that I was interested in Lucas. There is no way I am! He is stubborn. Selfish. A jerk. Annoying to the point that it gives me a headache. I focus on the homework and Cain who is telling me about the book he is reading. I asked him what his plans are for a career.

"I want to help children that been through what I have been through."

"So a therapist?"

"I guess so...yeah," he ate from his rice, "what about you?"

 "A scientist...maybe?"

It was 4 pm; me and Cain were under the bleachers drinking whiskey, beer and drugs which is pot. Carlos was getting me at 6 pm. Cain told me he brought some crack and if I would like to try it. I nod and he prepared me some on the lid that he brought and put some powder on it. He got a spoon from his pocket and poured  the powder on the spoon. And used his lighter to cook it into a little crystal. Then used a cigarette and rolled the crystal up in it and put it in his mouth, lighting it then inhaled it and then passed it to me. I did what he did and inhaled and exhaled it. We passed it back and forth while we also drank whiskey and beer. I felt alive. I saw pictures about things that don't exist in the real world. I find it better being this world. I felt like walking. Cain passed out. I walk all the way to a meadow and it was going on and on. I felt like flying. Flapping my wings I took off. Then I felt something hold me back. It felt like something was underneath both my arms. I was no longer in control of my legs. I heard a voice, "Are you crazy!!!" well more like an unpleasant voice, "were you planning to kill yourself!!!"

"Hmmm?"

"I said were you planning on killing yourself!!!"

'Lucas?' was it actually him? "What are you talking about killing myself?"

"What's going on with you lately!!"

I wasn't sure what he meant by that? "What are you blabbering about? And no I wasn't planning on killing myself."

"Then why are you on the roof?"

'Roof? What roof? We were in a meadow of flowers.' "What roof?"

"The one where we are getting off from now," I felt him lifting me up into his arms. Next thing I know we were in a bedroom.

"What's wrong with the idiot?" I heard someone say.

"Guys, could you leave us alone for a while?"  I heard a door open and close. I heard something. And then felt something dripping on my cheek, "You don't think, do you? You big idiot!" being placed on a bed.

My vision was blurry. "Are you crying?"

"Ha, what do you think?"

"I don't want to go back..."

"Huh? Don't go back to what? I don't understand you!"

I couldn't think straight, and I don't know what is coming out of my voice because I was too tired and drugged, "I don't want to go back..."

"To what!"

"I don't want to stay there tonight."

"You mean at your uncle's?"

I turn away from him; I don't know what to do now. I still have some sense of not saying why I don't want to go back. "Yeah, I can't let him find out what I been doing that's all."

"Been doing? Been doing w..." then he realizes, "are you drunk?"

Well, I thought he would realize, "Yes, I am; that's why I don't want to go back," if he doesn't realize it, then I won't say it, "at least tonight."

I felt him lift me again, "Then you are staying over at my mansion."

'Huh? What he say?' I don't even know what I said to him. Or where he was taking me.

I heard a car door open, and he helped me sit down in the front seat. 'What is going on? Where is he taking me?' I felt so tired all of a sudden that I could no longer keep my eyes open. My eyes closed.

I felt something bright and open my eyes. I look around and realize that I wasn't at my uncle's house. 'Where am I?'

The door suddenly opened and 'Lucas!' "Are you feeling better after a good nights sleep?"

I nodded while realizing why I am here with Lucas? "Um...am I in your house?"

"Don't you remember? You didn't want to go back last night to your uncle so I brought you here."

I gasp and face my hands, "Did I say anything else?"

He hands me some tea, "Only that you were drunk."

I sipped from my tea with relieve. 'Good he doesn't know.'

"Explain something to me will you?"

"Depends?"

"Were you planning on killing yourself lastnight?"

'So what if I did it doesn't matter to anyone. But then again why is he asking me this?' "No I wasn't."

"Then why on the roof and wanting to jump off?"

'Should I tell him that I was on drugs? Nah then it will get both Cain and me in trouble.' Actually hold on. I had to choose either the killing myself excuse or the drugs that made me to that. "I um...," what will it be?... "I was...doing pot and got high," it was crack that made me jump off the roof but I lied saying it was the pot that did that.

"You do drugs!"

"Just pot," I lie. Then I realized something. I wasn't suppose to talk to Lucas and here I am in his house. In his guest room I'm guessing? I was fully clothed so I know he didn't take advantage of me. I got up quickly, "Thanks for letting me stay here tonight," I took off down the stairs and out the door, 'Shit. Crap. Damn!'

A few minutes later while I walking on the sidewalk. I saw a car pull up. 'Give it up already Lucas!' He rolled down the window, "Need a ride?"

'If he drives me Rayson will see.'