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Chapter 48 How to get rid of the haunting memories

Lucas since last night till this morning has been in his room with the door locked. I have no idea what he is doing. He has been acting strange during the car ride. And his hands looked like they were a bit shaking. Why? Was he nervous about something? 

Right now we were sitting at the dining table with his maid at 6 pm. His brother and father were on a business trip together. Well his father was Matt his came along with him for the fun of it. I look over at Lucas I find it interesting that he hasn't said much during dinner when he usually chats up a storm. He didn't bump my leg like he usually does while eating. Not that I complain cause it has been annoying. Looking at him he was forking his plate more then eating so much for the elegant Lucas right now. I shake my head at him as I eyed him. "Something bothering you?" his maid asked.

Lucas looks up at her and shakes his head, 'Lier' I thought. I stood up and without asking if I could be excused I left the dining room and went out to the porch. I needed a breather. My mind was full of Lucas. I look over the porch. It was still a bit light out. How can one person make my heart flutter? When for a long time I didn't know I had a heart. Well I knew I had a heart else I would be dead but I didn't think my heart that used to be a stone cold, dark heart decided to open up to Lucas? Now my mind is crazy and I didn't get alot of sleep lastnight not because of Lucas but Rayson. I know he is now in Jail and can't get me but the haunting of the memories won't stop. I heard footsteps on porch and knew who it was. I turn around to see Lucas coming towards me, "Are you deciding to talk to me now? Cause you been acting like I don't exist today."

Lucas gasps and holds me close in his arms, "I'm here now," he turns my head to look at him and kisses me gently on the mouth. He looks at my face, "Your eyes seem red? Have you not been sleeping well?"

I shake my head and look away from his eyes that looked like they could read my soul. I look over the porch there is a fountain in the middle of the garden underneath. It was a red fountain with a huge blue stone on the top that was turning with the water. The water is purple. "I been having dreams about him."

"Rayson? You know that you are safe from him now right? From what you told about the court thing yesterday."

"Yeah I know that he can't touch me anymore but it's haunting dreams of him that keep me up," I put my head in my arms, "I wish they would stop."

"Rape is something that won't go away just like that it takes time to get rid of the memories and they may take years for those memories to aside?"

I look up at him, "How can it be rape when I was the one...who let him?"

Lucas puts a hand on me and looks into my eyes, "If you said no he would of done it anyway. It is disgusting what he did and worse he is your uncle."

I nod, my face grew upset, "I need help."

"You can go to a person who deals with that stuff? That you can talk too and she or he will help you. It's better if it is a she for that stuff."

"You mean a therapist?" Lucas nods.

"I mean I'm here if you want to talk about it but you should go to someone who knows what she is doing for help and figuring out to get better with the dreams?"

I nod and look over the porch, "I will think about it."

At 9 pm I went over too Lucas' room and knocked on the door. He led me in and my eyes went over to the bed where roses were shaped as a heart, then over at the dresser there were three candles lit, is there fragance that I smell sprayed all over the room smells like honey suckles. I look over at Lucas.

"You like?" he asks me looking around himself.

I nod, "I didn't think that you would do something romantic like this?"

"Lets just say I done some studying," he smirks at me while closing the door and locking it.

I look at him as he takes my hands and leads me over to the bed. He pulls me down on the bed and wraps his legs around the back of my legs to get me underneath him while he is straddled on top of my hips. I was pinned down on the bed I look up at him with scared eyes remembering the way Rayson pinned me. Seeing the fear in my eyes he reassured me, "I will be gentle to you."

 Have to stop for the Lucas' pov