How Long Will I Love You? | Book 1

Chapter XXXIX: Suite

"Kiss me until I forget how terrified I am of everything with my life."

SPG

"Saan tayo pupunta?" Kathryn asked when they stopped for a while because the stoplight signalled red.

Daniel was holding her hand even while driving. Hindi niya ito binitawan, he brought her hand to his lips and kiss it without breaking eye contact.

Pwede niyang titigan ang asawa ngayon ng hindi magaalala na maaksidente sila dahil nakahinto ang sasakyan.

"Somewhere I can literally treat you like a queen. My queen." he said giving her a boyish grin, which she finds cheesy and extremely cute.

"You like surprising me ha? Dami mo ng pogi points sa akin." she said returning a grin to him.

"Nagiipon talaga ako,para makasingil ako anytime.." sabay kindat niya. Parang nakikiliti naman si Kath sa pinaparamdam sa kanya ni Daniel.

"...and I love doing everything to you,hindi lang surprises." she continued to smile and feel the butterfly in her stomach. But ib split second it disappeared. Her thoughts were clouded once again. She's worried and isn't denying it.

"Parang ang hirap maging masaya, pakiramdam ko kasi it wouldn't last..." she leaned to her seat turning her head out the window.

"Kung sana normal ako...eh di sana totoo tayong masaya." she sighed.

There was a seconds of silence until Daniel spoke "Bakit hindi ka ba masaya Kath?" with sadness in his tone.

Tumingin si Kathryn sa kanya at napansin na malungkot ang mata niyang nakatingin sa kanya. Maybe because of her question.

Pinisil ni Kathryn ang kamay ni Daniel "I'm happy,more than happy...kuntento ako. Pero hindi mo naman maalis sa akin na mag worry. Lalo pa ngayon...it's you who's involved. How can i be completely happy kung alam kong pwede kang mapahamak?"

She was holding her tears but she doesn't know hanggang kailan niya makakaya pigilan ang pag guho uli ng mundo niya sa katotohanan na may panganib sa buhay ng pinakamamahal niya.

"Whatever hurts you,kills me...gives me double, triple or 10 times death. I can't bear losing you Babe." she choked in tears again. Magang maga na mata ni Kathryn sa pagiyak simula kanina.

Binitawan saglit ni Daniel ang kamay niya only to pull her in his embrace. Though hindi siya tuluyang makalapit dahil sa seatbelt.

Just in time the stoplight hit green, siniik niya ng halik sa labi ang asawa to calm her down.

"I love you so much baby.." ang tanging nasabi niya kay Kath at nagpatuloy magmaneho papunta sa destinasyon nila.

Everytime he's left without reasons or words to give meaning to things, when everything seems unreasonable, imposible and difficult to comprehend. He says the words " I love you" and all things makes sense again.

Mahal niya si Kathryn mahal siya nito. Enduring the pain while loving her isn't as hard as to imagining life without her. Para sa kanya wala siyang hindi kakayanin kung para kay Kathryn.

Oo, may panganib sa kanila pero gusto niya munang itakas si Kath kahit ngayong gabi lang.

He wanted tonight to be different, at least for tonight. Gusto niyang iparamdam sa asawa na hindi sila matatakot sa bukas na darating dahil araw araw siyang magigising na minamahal niya si Kath. Gabi gabing pangalan ni Kathryn ang sinisigaw niya habang nagmamahalan sila buong magdamag. Ipaparamdam niya kay Kath kung gaano niya ito gusto maging masaya.