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Playlist: Aqualung - To the Wonder (feat. Kinda Grannis)

"Are you ready to head into the delivery room?" Doctor Rose smiled at me.

I shook my head no. "No, I can't do this." I said, starting to freak out. "I don't think I can do this." I was aching from all the contractions I was receiving today, and I was already sweating from all of the pressure and tension. I felt tired, even though I wasn't in actual physical labor yet. I already felt done with everything; I just wanted this damn baby out of me.

"Hey, Liana, you'll be fine." Kyle smoothed in my ear. I grabbed his hand nervously as I felt another contraction coming.

"Ms. Gillian, all women go through this. You will be able to do it. Just think about it in the end: you'll be a wonderful, healthy baby boy." Doctor Rose said calmingly. She even smiled at me again.

My heart stopped as my eyes widened. Everyone looked up at her. "A. . a boy?" I asked quietly, tears forming in my eyes.

She smiled softly. "Yes, weren't you notified of this?"

I shook my head, still in shock. "No, we weren't." I smiled. I looked over at my mom, who had her hands to her mouth. Her eyes started to get glassy, and so were Mara's.

"Kyle.. I'm going to have a boy!"

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I thought about her other words. It's true, all mothers go through this. There are even patients giving birth right now in this hospital. Despite that I'm uncomfortable, sweaty, and in pain, I was going to have to go through this anyways from the beginning. All of the pain that I suffered was for him. My precious baby.

I nodded slowly. "Take me in."

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"Oh, Liana, you're going to have to push harder than that if you want this baby out soon." Doctor Rose said to me for the millionth time. I have been in labor for about twelve hours now, and I knew that it was going to take longer because it was my first baby.

I groaned in pain as I stopped pushing and laid down on my back, crying. "I can't." I sobbed out to Kyle, who was in here with me the whole time. "I can't." It made me sick that I just gave up like that, so weak.

"Baby, you have to keep going." He kissed my forehead, giving me support.

"Oh, you don't think I know that?" I screamed at him, then started to scream in general. I ripped out my vocal chords one by one, and it wasn't pleasant very pleasant. I kept squirming while being held down by doctors and Kyle's arms.

"Shh," he whispered soothingly into my ear, which was moist with sweat. Everything was sweaty and uncomfortable, my feet and hands were swollen, and my back felt like a truck had ran it over. My vagina felt like it was basically stretched out. Basically it felt like my body could tear in half from this baby.

"C'mon Liana, you can do it," Asa encouraged me, smiling down. I knew that she was crying and that her smile was forced, I knew that she was worried to death on the inside.

"Liana, you better start pushing or else that baby is going to-"

"I'm pushing, I'm pushing!" I screamed, more tears falling out of my eyes. "Get this baby out of me!"