trendsetter ☹ matthew e.

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Back to the alternate universe. Alena and Matthew are back to 15/16 years old.

"Honestly, I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't know what's wrong with this life. What am I doing?"

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"Mija," Estela stared at me, watching my hands move swiftly over the hovering keyboard. "How's school?"

Horrible.

"It's good. All my classes are perfectly organized and I've made a couple of good friends." I lied. The only friend I've made was Matthew, but if I ever told Estela about that, she would have me baptized all over again.

"None of them are white are they? You know how whites are." Estela asked then commented.

"Nope. They're just like us," I smiled. It wasn't a total lie, Matthew wasn't fully white, He was Columbian. And besides that, I think his skin color shouldn't matter. I mean, it's the same as mine, it can be scraped, burned, cut, scarred, scabbed, It didn't matter. It was just lighter than mine. In this world light is lower, but it — to me — is the same. We're all equal.

Besides, you don't judge your friends by their appearance, you judge them by their character. You choose the people you call your friends because they have a sort of character that you look for and they choose you; So if they are like you, why on earth should you care about their skin color?

It just didn't make sense to me.

"Oh good! I would hate for you to get involved with the wrong crowd." Estela chuckled, shaking her head in approval.

I nodded my head, looking down at the keyboard. "Anything else? I have to finish this."

Estela frowned a bit, her eyes looking at me with a look I couldn't quite explain. "Oh, Dinner is ready. If you want you can come down."

After that she left the room.

I shook my head, leaning back in the chair and rubbing my temples. I leaned forward and sighed, counting to ten.

Honestly I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't know what's wrong with this life. What am I doing?

I suddenly heard a light tap on the window, startling me a bit. As I looked up I saw Matthew. My eyes widened a bit, and I quickly got up and walked over to the window, opening it and letting him in.

"It's fucking cold!" Matthew whisper shouted, coming in with his hands wrapped around his body and teeth shattering.

I lightly hit his shoulder, scolding him. "Do not use that kind of language!"

"Sorry mom," Matthew laughed and rolled his eyes, plopping onto my bed. He made himself comfortable, taking off his shoes and cuddling into my sheets.

"Matthew, you have to go. Estela is here and Alex will be here soon," I told him, urging for him to get up while looking at the door.

"Chill babe, I saw Estela leave when I was coming in," Matthew told me, grabbing my hand and pulling me to lay with him.

I had a weird tingle feeling when he said that word, the word 'babe,' Whenever Tanaya had said it, I merely glanced at her.

I laid down, making myself comfortable and looked into his eyes. "You smell funny. And your eyes are red."

Matthew closed his eyes, sighing deeply. "Let's not worry about that."

"But I want to worry. Are you okay?"

Matthew took a deep breath, rolling onto his back and bringing me to lay on his arm. He wrapped it around my neck and snuggled me
to him. "No, Alena, I'm not okay."

I looked up at him, seeing his eyes close and flutter back open. "What happened?"

"So, Tony had invited me to hang out with a few of his friends, I forgot their names, but they were doing something, they called it weed," Matthew paused, breathing out through his mouth.

"And, I don't know what happened after that. I kinda just remember trying it and then having flash backs of You and I laying down next to each other, and," Matthew chuckled dryly.

"You looked at me like you were in love. And I felt in love. I felt in love with someone who isn't my parents, and now I'm not sure how I feel."

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hoy fuck. Anyways, I wanted to do a bit of explaining :: I know reverse racism is thing, it can never be a thing, so now that you know that I understand that pls don't comment and b like " omg whites r not.. " and all that bc I don't have time for that irrelevant stuff. Pls also keep in mind that this is an alternate universe thx *blows kiss* oh, and also I decided to keep the curse words the same so that no one is confused ((:

I LOVE YOU SO BERRY MUCH!

xox, claire