trendsetter ☹ matthew e.

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Matthew and Alena are 15/16, and will be until I announce that they are a different age ((bc honestly I'm getting tired of constantly writing the same age lmaooo).

"What the hell do you mean you 'don't remember?"

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I pushed open the doors of my school, grazing over the students with my eyes in search of Matthew — Who seemed to be no where in sight.

My heart had sunken to the pit of my stomach, thinking that he might've left me — My only friend, might've left me. I mean, I had other people to talk to.. But they just weren't the same.

They were not there for me when I was crying on the school restroom floor, begging for my life to be taken away when I had my first breakup -- Nor were they there for me when I first realized I didn't feel attracted to girls like other girls.

A sudden tap on my shoulder broke me from my thoughts, and I turned, smiling at the sight of Matthew's face.

"Hey," I smiled, pulling him in for a hug.

Matthew awkwardly hugged me back, causing me to release the hug and look at him weirdly.

"What's wrong?"

Matthew blinked. "I- uh- What happened last night?"

I looked blankly at Matthew, wondering if he was serious. "You don't remember?"

"I uh- No, I-I don't remember," Matthew let out, not making eye contact with me.

I gritted my teeth, disconnecting my body fully away from him. "What the hell do you mean you 'don't remember?"

Matthew chuckled, his brown eyes finally looking into mine. "It's as simple as it sounds. I don't remember, jeez, lay off."

"The fuck is wrong with you?" I asked him.

"Me? What's wrong with you?" Matthew fired back.

I rolled my eyes. "You were different last night. I actually thought you cared."

Matthew let out a dry laugh, lowering down to my height. "I was high. I would never actually like you, you're a girl."

I blinked. "Fuck you Matthew."

"I only fuck boys, but thanks."

I rolled my eyes, walking away and flipping him off.

Once I had rounded the corner, my full emotions came out. My eyes had filled with a tsunami of tears and my heart swelled, thinking of the current events. I shook my head, feeling tear after tear fall onto my cheek.

'I would never actually like you, you're a girl'

I shook my head, hitting a nearby locker and clenching my jaw. Fuck him. Fuck Matthew. Fuck boys. Fuck love.

I repeatedly hit the locker, then on beginning to kick it and yell, as if it were Matthew. People gathered around me, watching the quiet girl finally break. Some people recorded my mental break down, while others chatted amongst their friends about how crazy I was.

Someone clutched my shoulder, turning me around. My breaths were ragged, and my eyes were still filled with fury as I was met with the worried face of Tanaya.

"You okay?" Tanaya asked, blocking the people from viewing me as she moved in front of me.

I shook my head, looking down as more tears poured down my face.

Tanaya pulled me in for a side hug, leading me towards the girls' restroom. "Let's go get you cleaned up."

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Well fuck.

I LOVE YOU!

have a good night : DAY : AFTERNOON

xox, claire