Just another girl (1D fan fiction)

Just another girl (chapter 25)

Ashley's POV

I've spent the past couple of nights at home with Sandra and the boys. I'm wanting to spend as much time as possible with them before I leave for America in a few days. I have all my stuff packed which means that I only seemed to have jogging bottoms and plain t-shirts to wear for now. Seeing as we are going to be away for such a long time I thought that it would be necessary to pack lots of the clothes which I own. Things such as toiletries I haven't stocked up on as I know that they will be widely available in the countries that we are visiting. As the tour gets closer and closer I can't help but feel more nervous. Sandra has told me so many times that I don't need to worry because Liam will be there along with the rest of the boys. She knows that Liam will look after me and I also know that but I feel so guilty for what happened with Harry. It's been several days since then and the feeling has just built up inside me getting worse every time that I think of and see Liam. I haven't told him about what happened that afternoon but I'm sure he knows that something is up. Every time he's come to see me since then I've caught him several times taking in my expression as if he's trying to read my thoughts. Seeing as he's so curious I know that soon enough he will ask me about it, I will answer him honestly and just hope that my words don't hurt him as much as it hurts me to keep it my guilty secret.

I haven't seen Harry since yesterday and that was only briefly. He didn't say much other than,

"Have you told Liam?"

"Maybe we shouldn't, it might not be good for the tour."

"I didn't mean to confuse you Ash, I just wanted to tell you how I felt."

Now that I think about it over and over again I can't help but feel sorry for Harry. I had met him first before any of the other boys, in fact he was the one who introduced me to Liam in the first place. However he couldn't have known that me and Liam would get along so well and be in the relationship that we are now. I buried my head into my hands and tried hard to block out these thoughts. All I wanted right now was to look forward to what was going to come and that was the tour. Surely if I can look forward to something it has to be that. I was concentrating so hard on the idea of the tour and being abroad that I practically jumped when my phone started to vibrate on the table in front of me. Liam's face appeared on the screen reminding me that it had been two days since I'd actually seen him face to face to talk to. A smile smile spilled dross my face as I answered.

"Hey, I was just thinking about you" a small giggle escaped my lips matching the one on the other end of the phone at my childish words.

"I was wondering if you wanted to come over tonight and maybe even tomorrow night seeing as we're leaving for the tour in two days anyway." I thought about it for a while, I want to see Liam but I am scared he'll find out about the situation with Harry. It will be good for me to get it out of my head but it will certainly break him to think of me with his band mate.

"That would be lovely, when shall I come round?" The thoughts which were trying to put me off seeing Liam didn't override the need I felt to see him after hearing his voice.

"I can come and pick you up in about an hour if you'd like?"

"Perfect." I answered. Seeing as I am now going to be staying at Liam's until we leave for the tour it means that I will have to take my packed suitcase with me. This also means that today will be the last time I see Sandra and the boys before I come back in a few months time.i know that I will miss them because I've never had to spend so much time away from them before. Since I lost both my parents Sandra, Jamie and Andrew have been a perfect family and treated me like a daughter and sister. Even though I am going to miss them dearly it's not going to stop me from ringing them while I'm away and updating them on my current situations. Not only will I miss Sandra but I know that Sandra will miss me, she loves having another women in the house so that she doesn't have to deal with my adopted brothers by herself. Jamie and Andrew are very protective over me because of my past, little things that happen can trigger them both to step in and help me whenever they feel it's necessary. I'm so thankful for this and I hope they know that.