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Scary Things Happen Sometimes (Ashton) [Part 2]

"Dearly beloved we gather here today to honor..."

I tuned the priest out and stared at the coffin, tears running down my face. The boys gave me a group hug and we all walked to the casket together. It was a closed casket.

"That bastard killed .. he killed.." I fell to my knees, sobbing

Michael led me out of the room, and sat me on a bench, outside of the funeral home. I cried into his jacket, and he held me in his arms. We stayed like that until I couldn't cry anymore.

"You ok?" He asked and I nodded

If only Michael knew. I was never going to be okay.

We walked back, as people were starting to leave. I needed to be alone.

"We'll be outside, okay?" Michael said, as he and the boys left.

I stood in front of the closed coffin, tears pouring down my face.

"My beautiful baby sister" I said

I pulled out a bottle, and put the note on Y/N's coffin

"It should've been me. Why Y/N? Why did you push me out of the way?"

I chugged down the bottle of pills and took a sip of alcohol. My vision was getting blurry, and I was starting to black out.

The boys came back, just as I fell to the ground

"ASHTON!" They screamed and ran over to me.

"I..I..I'm s..sorry" I said and gave a sad smile "I ne..eed to b..b..be wi..t..th Y/N"

Everything went white

...

Dear Boys

I love you all, you are the best band mates I could've ever asked for. I was already gone as soon as he pulled the trigger. You would never have had the same Ashton. I needed to do this, I can't live without Y/N. Tell Lauren and Harry that I love them, and that Y/N and I are watching over them in Heaven. Don't stop the band, even if you hate each other, please don't hurt the fans by separating. Don't grieve for me because this is what I want. I'm sorry if that's not what you wanted.

I love you all

Your best mate,
Ash