Publicity // Luke Hemmings & Lauren Jauregui

Chapter Four: Voices In My Head

Lauren Jauregui

I watched as Luke exited the tour bus. Even through my teared vision, I could see the regret in his features. Don't let him pity you. That makes you weak, voices in my head instructed. Nothing good comes out of the weak.

I grabbed my jet black jacket. Leaving my phone behind I exited the bus, just as Luke did earlier. The voices that lived in my mind were no stranger. They were the little bits in your mind that looked down on you, no matter how much everyone else praised. Voices that make you feel insecure.. Depressed.. Alone. Believe me, you cannot conquer them. They are as strong as you are. No matter where life takes you, life will take them as well.

I let my feet walk themselves. I didn't care where I was going or where, just somewhere that where I could be alone. In most of these situations, people would turn to comfort, or someone to 'help'. But it's in these situations you realize no one really fucking understands. The person who is distributing comfort is doing it because they pity you and don't want the guilt to carry on with them.

I sat down on the ledge of a crusted, rusty bench. Not sure of where the hell I was or what I was doing, I just sat there.

At this moment, time didn't matter and neither did reason.

The voices in my head were getting louder. They continued to scream profanities at me; blaming me for Emily's death, telling me I'm worthless, stating how I always run from my problems.

I just wanted it to stop.

That's all I wanted to do.

"Lauren!"

Stop.

"Lauren!"

No.

"Lauren? Is that you?" My ears suddenly perked up at the voice. The voice was laced with an accent and didn't sound like anything that was in my mind. Turning around, I was met with the same blue eyes that I had seen a hour ago. His arms wrapped around my body, "Don't do that again, you hear?"

I stayed silent.

Hearing him sigh, Luke grabbed my chin and forced my head to look straight at his. "Lauren, c'mon."

"Okay.." I mumbled. I knew I was lying.

But he didn't.

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Short yes, don't hate me.. BUT 100 READS! :)

Question: What are ships that you don't approve of, or just not like?

Answer: in my opinion, I do not ship luke and arzaylea very much. I'm not the kind of fan to hate on every single girl/guy they date but she's done some pretty bad things. That's all, I respect all other ships.

Oh! And does anyone have any other ships they want me to include in the book?? (Yeah, I can make there be a love triangle if you want there to be one..)

-em xx