Together but Separate

Chapter 11: A Lot of Why's

Kate Rojas

Pumasok ako sa kwarto ko at binitawan ang maleta ko para umupo sa couch at hinubad ang suot kong sapatos. I leaned on the couch and closed my eyes.

I was so tired. A week of working in Singapore made me so tired because of nonstop appointments and transactions. Although I was happy because we made a lot of progress. Few more weeks, and we will be launching our products both in Singapore and Vietnam. I could not be more excited about this. It was my dream.

I did not realize that I dozed off while seating on the couch. I woke up in the middle of the night, so I got up and went to the bathroom. I changed into my sleepwear then went to bed to sleep.

The next day, I was having breakfast in the kitchen. I was waiting for Nicko to come down for breakfast. I needed to ask him if he already filed our annulment. I waited for awhile, but he did not show up.

I asked one of the maids, "Is he home?"

"Wala po ata, maam. Hindi namin nakitang umuwi si sir."

I nodded and got up to leave for work. Maybe tonight or tomorrow I would see him. Nagtaka kasi ako kung bakit wala akong nakitang annulment papers nung umuwi ako galing Singapore. I wanted to ask him about it.

For a few days of being away from here, I realized that it was better for us to separate ways. We were just so incompatible living together. Most especially, I was still offended by what he said. He was so full of himself and taking all the credits for all the achievements I had been getting since we got married. He thought I would not achieve those if we were not married? Tss. He did not know me well. He thought of me lowly.

Days went by, and Nicko was still out of sight. I had not seen him since I came back. Where could he be?

Was he staying in a different house to avoid me? Did he leave his own house? Well, he did not have to do that because I should be the one leaving. This was his house anyways. Once we settled the annulment, I would pack my bags and go back home.

Another day went by and I started to wonder where he was. Why was he not showing up? Why I had not heard anything from him? Did he file the annulment? If he did, why I did not receive anything yet?

Even through our last days of being married, he was making it difficult for me. He was making me wait too long.

I looked at my laptop and an idea came on me. I opened my email and checked to see if there was an email from him, but I found nothing. I decided to write him a message because the idea of waiting was killing me.

To: Nicko Ferragni

I would like an update about the annulment. Have you filed it yet? Just let me know if you want me to do it instead.

I pressed sent after typing my message. I was at work but my mind was thinking about Nicko. I needed to focus. I forced myself to go back doing my work.

* * *

As days went by, I became so anxious. I was in my office and had been refreshing my email application many times, hoping to find a response from Nicko, but I did not.

What was happening to him? Where in the world was he that he could not manage to send me an email?

He was a businessman. I was hundred percent sure that he was checking his emails everyday because it was part of his job. Was he just ignoring me?

All of the sudden, I felt worried. A negative thought came into my mind.

Was he okay? Did something happen to him? I began to feel more anxious. This was killing me. I did not know if I could take it for a few more days wondering what was going on and where could he be.