Why Love When Its Hopeless?

Introduction

Hi, my name is Shelby, I am 19 years old. I have long brown curly hair and light brown eyes. I live in Atlanta and I live with my mom; who works 24.7 and sometimes comes home for a couple hour ls on her break or for a holiday or my birthday. It gets really lonely in the house.

I have only one friend, that is my sister, Kirstin. She lives in Canada for college, so I only get to video chat her in the morning which makes it night over there. She's 24, so throughout our lives together she's always looked out for me. I truly miss her.

I'm barley making it through with the whole money situation, and I work at least 8 hour days at a small diner in town. I also volunteer with the children in the hospital who are suffering and need some reassuring and comfort.

I have 3 idols that I look up to. 1. Justin Bieber 2. Ellen Degeneres 3. My Mom. I have special reasons for all of those. Also, I love to sing, it's one of my favorite hobbies. Probably my only hobby.

I have had a bad past, but who doesn't? My ex boyfriend, Eddie, cheated on me with my ex best friend, Mckenna. When I broke up with him, he was so heartbroken. He kept telling me how much he wanted me back. After about 3 months of trying to convince me to forgive him, he killed himself. He was found hung in his bedroom closet with a letter, mentioning my name. I felt as if it were all my fault. And I still feel guitly about it. And ever since, I have never had another boyfriend. A couple guys have asked me here and there but, I always said no. I don't want what happened last time happen again. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I let that happened again. Ever since Eddie, I felt as if I couldn't trust anyone who comes into my life. People say I'm quick to push people away, but who could blame me.