Why Love When Its Hopeless?

Chapter 11.

~~Shelby's POV~~

We were almost an inch away, he was leaning in when..

When there was a knock on the door. We both took a step back. I cleared my throat and turned to open the door. I swung the door to open, to see Kierstin standing there.

"Uh hey Shelby, I just came to say bye. My flight leaves in an hour.'" She said with smirk when she saw Justin behind me.

"Umm Kierstin, can I please talk to you?" I asked taking her arm, "Uh Justin I'll be right back. Please don't...leave yet." I said looking at him with desperate look in my eyes.

"Don't worry,  I won't leave without a good-bye" He said with a smile. I smiled back and turned to drag Kierstin to her old room. I closed the door and locked it.

"Okay, what happened in there?!" Kierstin whispered/yelled. I took a deep breathe,

"JustinandIalmostkissed" I said. Kierstin furrowed her eyebrows,

"Say that one more time, but just a tad bit slower." She said crossed her arms over her chest.

"Justin..and I....almost...kissed" I said in a low tone. I looked down at my socks, why do I have one poke-a-dot on and one stripped? I guess I was just lazy.

"Shelby!" Kierstin snapped, knocking me out of my thoughts.

"Huh, what?" I said, snapping my head up to look at her.

"I said, how did that happen?" Kierstin said taking my arm and pulling me onto the bed with her. I smiled just thinking about it.

"Well I helped Justin clean off the soap and I was about to leave when he stopped me. He turned me around and we were close. Like really close. He was leaning in when you knocked." I said smiling.

"OH! I'm sorry!" She said with guilt in her eyes.

"Kierstin! No! I'm glad you did." I said putting my hand on her arm. She looked up at me with a shocked and confused face.

"What? Why? If he kissed you, you know what that could mean!" she asked still very confused. I sighed.

"Justin and Selena are still dating, and I don't want to be the reason for them to break up again. I don't want, what happened with you-know-who, to happen again." I said raising my eyebrows. She had a look of understanding and stood up.

"Oh ok, just be careful." She said pulling me into a hug. I hugged back instantly,

"I always am." I said into her neck, not wanting her to go.

"Shelby, I have to go." She said pulling away. I sighed.

"I know." I said with another tear slipping down my cheek. Kierstin wiped it away.

"I love you, lil sis." She said smiling at me.

"I love you too, big sis." And with that she walked out. I sighed, and walked out of the room and into the living room. Justin was sitting on the couch on his phone. He must have heard me walk in because he sat down his phone and stood up walking over to me.

"Hey, uh, Scooter texted, I have to head back to the hotel." He said looking down at me. I looked down, another tear left my cheek. Kierstin left. Justin's leaving, and my mom is leaving in an hour. I wasn't ready to be alone again. 

"Hey, what's wrong?" Justin asked lifting my chin up with his pointer finger. He saw my tearful eyes. "Hey. Why are you crying?" He asked bring me into a strong hug. I started sobbing into his chest. "Shhh, it's ok" Justin said rubbing my back. "Now tell me whats wrong" He said sitting us on the couch. I wiped my cheek, with my sleeve.

"K-Kierstin, already left to Canada. My m-mom is leaving in an hour. A-And your leaving n-now. I-I'm not ready to be alone a-again." I sobbed. Justin pulled me back into another hug. We just sat there, holding each other until I calmed down.

Once I calmed down, I pulled away from the hug. I wiped my tears, I saw that Justin had tear stains on his shirt. "Oh my gosh, I'm sorry! I got tear stains on your shirt!" I said looking at Justin who looked down at his shirt. "Justin, I'll buy you a new shirt I'm so-"

"Shel, It's fine! I have another shirt just like this. Don't worry." I froze. That nickname. Eddie, used to call me that. Justin must have noticed my hesitance, "Hey, whats wrong?" He asked, scooting closer to me, putting his hand on my back.

"Uh-Um Nothing." I said shaking my head, standing up and walking into the kitchen. I saw a note on the fridge. It read,

"Dear Shelby,

I'm sorry I had to leave, there was an emergency at work. Happy Birthday, baby girl. Take care of yourself. I love you. Call me as soon as you can so I know you are okay.

Love Mom."

I sighed and kept the note there, so I can remember to call her. I sat down on one of the bar stools, and put my head in my hands. I heard footsteps come into the kitchen. The bar stool next to me screeched across the floor. I knew it was Justin, considering it's just us two in the house.

"Shelby are you ok? I'm here if you wanna talk." He said quietly. I sighed. I figure I might as well tell him, I just hope I can tell him without bursting into tears.