Why Love When Its Hopeless?

Chapter 5

~Shelby's POV~

I took a seat next to Ellen, she handed me a tissue to clear my tears. I did so shakily.

"I can't believe I'm here! Why am I here?" I asked Ellen so curious as too why I am here.

She smiled, "I got your video you sent us. And you seem like a wonderful girl who has been through a lot." My smile faded a little thinking about what I have gone through. "Oh sweetie it's ok. Do you know the people who helped bring you here?" She asked with a little sadness, in her voice, trying to bring my spirit up again.

"Who??" I asked more curious than ever. She giggled and looked into the audience. I looked as well, and saw my mom and my sister!! "OH MY GOSH!!" I squeaked covering my mouth. Tears were coming again.

I hadn't seen my mom in 3 months! I looked at Ellen and she motioned me to go and see them. I ran up there and hugged my mom and my sister. I was crying hard. I was so happy to see them.

"Happy Birthday sweetie." My mom whispered in my ear, which was heard by everyone cause I had a small microphone on my shirt.

"Mom. Did you seriously plan this?" I asked looking at her clearing my tears.

"Well with a little tiny help of me" Kierstin said with a big grin on her face.

"Oh my gosh Kierstin! I MISS YOU SO MUCH!" I cried hugging her so tightly. She is my big sister and miss her so much!

"I miss you too! I love you little sis. Happy Birthday." She whispered, trying not to cry. I giggled, and let go clearing my tears again.

"Alright now go back down there, you know I'm camera shy." Kierstin whispered, as she covered her face with her long dirty blonde hair. I giggled.

"Thank you guys, I love you both so much" I said kissing their cheeks and walked down the stairs and sat back down.

"How was it finally seeing your family?" Ellen asked, clearing some of her tears.

"It's amazing, I haven't seen my mom is 3 months! And I haven't seen my sister in several years! It's truly amazing. Thank you!" I said shakily again. Ellen giggled.

"Well we all know that you love Justin Bieber so much," I blushed and smiled widely at the mention of his name. "I want to know, how much of an effect does he have to you with what your going through?"

My smile went down a little as I tried to find the right words, "Justin. He is the best thing I have when I'm home alone with no one. I don't have any friends. So with Justin being in my life, it's-it's just amazing. He has taught me so much over these past 5 years. He taught me to "Never Say Never" and that dreams do come true no matter who you are. He taught me to Believe in myself." I sighed, with a frown. "But there are times were I have failed him, even though he doesn't know I exist. I still feel like every time I "cope" I have let him down." A few tears left my eyes, " And I don't wanna let him down, I love him so much. I would do anything to be able to hug him and tell him that I'm sorry." I wiped away a tear, when I felt a tap on my shoulder.