Swimming to my heart

Chapter 7 : Saying it

2 months later

What is love? I never knew the answer of this question because it seems really complicated, Is it a victory of heart or a lose for brain ? Is it the biggest lie or the most real feeling?

And just When I met him, I realized what is it !  Love is a daily fact of mutual exchange, complicity, tolerance,listening to each other in good and bad moments and being always there when our partner needs us, it’s when you see the person you love perfect.

It will be the most hurtful feeling if the one you love doesn’t feel the same way about you ( My case ) and if he loves you back , you will live the most beautiful experience in you entire life.

“Marry how do you know when you are in love?” I whispered during math class , “ I can know that we’re going to fail in math if we didn’t listen to the teacher” Marry grinned at me.

“ oh com on tell me plz plz plz..” I said begging her , “ okey stop it , first of all teenagers don’t fall in love they just think they do but they don’t ,second you are totally in love with him and you can’t fight it anymore “ she said with a serious tone , “ and what do you suggest ?”.

“he has to find out about it sooner or later , you can’t stay like this anymore because you are getting so attached to him”.

“ and how can I  do that” I mumbled with a serious voice, “you have to tell him what you really feel” Marry respond.

Her words kept playing in my head. That girl is always right.

I’ve been like this since a longtime and if I don’t do it now , I will never do it. I mean think about it sof what’s the most awful thing that could happen? Euh hello saying I don’t love you back or ruining our friendship , I just can’t think about that.

Not having Adem at my side is like a nightmare, I just can’t imagine it, Plus my dignity will never let me do something like this, he should be the one who makes the first step.

4,3,2,1 and the bell rang , yaaay it was “ WINTER VACATION “, I ran out as fast as I can to get ou of this prison and it was perfect timing because I saw Adem across the street and I remembered what Marry said plus I won’t see him for two weeks so we have to make this clear, I can’t stand it anymore , being in this position is like being in the middle of nowhere. I don’t know how or why I was standing in front of him in few seconds saying “ we really need to talk Adem” ( where the hell is that courage is coming from?).

“ Is everything okay ?” , I took a deep breath and started “ as you know, we got so attached this couple of days and ..” Adem interrupted me by saying “ I know right, we’re really close friends now” Oh boy he’s not helping me here , he is just making it harder “ plz Adem just listen to me and don’t interrupt” , “ Okey I’m sorry , you can continue” he said with a serious voice and now he was looking at me straight in the eyes, by now everyone's eyes were popping out..

“ Adem” my heart started to beet faster when I pronounced his name  “ I can’t stop thinking about you since the moment I saw you and I feel like I’m on the top of the world when I talk to you, you just make me happy and  I never felt like this way before, maybe because you’re different than anyone else that I’ve ever met, I know that our friendship is really important to you, believe me I don’t want to ruin it,I don’t want an answer from you, I just wanted to say it, To say that I..i love you”.