Swimming to my heart

chapter 20 : he said WHAT?

" Can i talk to you?" lucas asked with a furious tone.

"what's wrong with you?" i replied , he never talked to me like that.

"i met Adem and his girlfriend yesterday and i was wondering if you accepted to be with me just because he did.

"Y.. No it's not like this,i wanted to turn the page and i thought i will.." i started when Lucas cut me " i get it now,i was really wrong about you" he replied and walked away not giving me the chance to explain.

And of course i can never be happy in my life, everything was perfect with Lucas,we spend 2 monthes toghther, we had a lot of ups and downs because he said that he loves and i Thanked him, yes yes i'm a heartbreaker and i'm exactly like Adem.

i said that i wasn't sure about my feelings and he should give me time eventhough i knew deep down that i will never be able to love because my heart belongs to someone else.

i didn't hear  from Adem for so long, and i didn't want to because it kills me when he talks to me about her and i was sick from pretending that everything is fine and it doesn't bothers me.

Oh no i should run behind Lucas and try to explain Blah blah. i'm not being a Slut or somethnig but he is making such a big deal out of it, he wanted a chance and i gave it to him.

i Texted Lucas : 

Luke i'm really sorry about everything, i shouldn't have done this to you.

my heart belongs to someone else,i tried to turn the page and forget about him by going out with you  but it didn't help,everything pulls me towards him eventough he is with her.

i'm so sorry luke and i wish you all the best.

I Don't want to lose him because he means a lot to me, he is such a great friend and saying those words is really hard for me.

i don't want to be like Adem, i don't want to give him hope and then run away, i'm better  than this.

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On which school day do you wake up with the BIGGEST smile on your face ?

yes,The last day of school,Oh god i'm in love with the 29th of May.

i jumbed from my bed grinning from ear to ear like a complete idiot,i took a quick shower, grabbed my light blue jeans and my red V-neck shirt and put them on before heading to school.

when i got to school, i was serrounded immediatly by my best friends, we spend an hour talking about our best memories this year and our summer projects.

No no nooo , i can't believe it the final bell Rang. what time is it ? it's summer time.

everyone jumped from their seets and started to yell , they couldn't believe that we went out from prison.

i felt my phone vibrating in my pocket, i grabbed it to find Adem's text message.

Can i see you, i'm not good.

I replied:

The park in Five.

What is wrong with him? what if that bitch did something to him? i swear that i'm going to stab her and bring her to life again and do it again for the millionth time.

i sppoted him when i walked to the park, i can see that he was so stressed out and nervous because he was running a hand through his messy hair.

"hey..why..what happend tell me?" i questioned trying to catch my breath, he gave a small ressuring smile.

" sit down first,and don't worry okey" he gave me another smile and that's when i started to get back to the Normal me.

"yes?" i asked after a couple of seconds?

"am i going to regret?" he said facing me.

" regret what?"

" i just broke up with anya, i don't feel it anymore"

ADEM just said WHAT ? OMG he broke up with the bitchiest bitch of bitchland and he doesn't feel IT anymore, IT !

i tried my best to hide the huge grin but i failed, i broke the eye contact because i didn't want him to think that i am taking this as a joke.

"you won't regret it Adem, i promise. you are such a great guy and you will find the PERFECT one for you sooner or later, it's just a matter of time" I Replied.

" maybe the perfect one is right in front of my eyes and i couldn't see her until now" he said leaving a couple of inches between us.

could anyone please repeat what Adem just said ? because i can't analyze what he does or say when my eyes fall on his.

"um..really.." i whipered.

he gave me a smirk in responce " did i say before that you look so cute when you blush".

"euh.. i guess not" Okay the boy is going to make my heart stop right now, please Adem back off.

"Then you look so cute when you blush" he whispered while leaning towards me,it looked like those movie's scenes when everything around you stops and it's all about you and Him.

"Yo Adem,we're late for the practice" a voice cutt our magical moment, and i say it again i can't be happy for once in my life.