Best Friends (A Youtuber Fanfic)

Chapter 22- Merry Christmas

Chapter 22

My god Izzy is 2 months old, its her first Christmas. We are all spending it at Alfie's parents, us Suggs and all the Deyes... wait did I just call myself a Sugg? I have been thinking about it but that's the first time I have actually accepted it and said it. Weird.

Anyway, we are all at Amanda and Nicks, even the dogs, and are just talking about how excited we are for tomorrow, Christmas day. I have been thinking that I really want to go back to Lola's grave for Christmas, I mean I have been avoiding it for years, I couldn't face going to it, it was just too upsetting. But now that I am back here and haven't had a Christmas with the people I love in years and I just feel like I just owe it to her to go see her and tell her that she is a big sister and that her mammy will always love her. Screw it I am going to do it but I cant do it alone... do I ask Alfie or Joe? Well its Alfie's child but he may not be able to go but then Joe might feel awkward going as it is his best friends child.

I will ask Alfie... "Alf? Can I speak to you somewhere?" I said over the room.

"If you are going to tell me you cant stand the smell of cheese again" he said laughing, passing Izzy over to Amanda.

We walked into the kitchen and sat down at the kitchen table. "What's up Meg?" he asked placing a hand on mine.

"I have been thinking, seen as though it is Christmas and the whole family is meant to be together. I have been thinking that I want to go to Lola's grave, see her and tell her that she is a big sister and that she will always be loved by her mammy even if she isn't always there" I said with a small smile.

Alfie looked at me with a smile, he stood up and walked to the corner of the kitchen and took something out of the bowl on top of the microwave. "Come on then, we will stop by the florist, grab some cute flowers then go see her". Well that wasn't what I excepted but ok then. I stood up and walked into the living room to tell Joe where we were going and he seemed ok with it.

At the graveyard

We walked into the graveyard, it was quite, nobody else seemed to be here. I was carrying a single white rose with a little plastic teddy bear attached to it. Alfie guided me towards the back of the rows where there was teddy bear shaped headstones and balloons, I haven't been in a long time so have forgot where she is.

"Here we are" Alfie said stopping in his tracks. I looked to where he was looking and there it was the little heart shaped headstone with "Lola Emilia Deyes" engraved into it. I took a deal breath and tried not to cry, it has been so many years since I have been it or even really thought about it. Normally when I think of her I think of the tiny little baby I held not the stone in the ground.

I knelt down so that I was the same height as it "hey Lola, it's mammy. I know it's been a while but I have been away, I have been in Newcastle learning. I bet daddy has been to see you though" I look up to Alfie who has a tear running down his face, of course he has I can see it in his face "your a big sister now, she's called Izzy but she is a Sugg not a Deyes like you, she is Joe's baby. You would really like her, she has hair like you, dark thick brown hair that is crazy. Hope you have got lots of friends up there, lots to play with" I sniff trying to be strong " mammy loves you I hope you know that, so does daddy. Ooo daddy has a new girl, yeah he does her name is Zoe she is very pretty, daddy loves her lots but not as much as his Lola, they are going to get married you know probably in a big house or something" I said looking up and laughing at him. He bent down to my level too.

"Hey Lola is daddy, I just want to say that mammy has a new boy his name is Joe and he is Zoe 's sister, I know she copied of me. You already knew about Zoe anyway I told you ages ago, I told you before I told mammy actaully" he said smiling I me knowing he had won.

"Anyway babes mammy can't feel her toes anymore, I just want to say merry Christmas babes. I might bring Izzy along one day so you can meet her. Here's a little Christmas present from mammy and daddy. We love you" I kissed my fingers and placed them on her name "bye bye"

"Bye sweetie see you soon" Alf said standing up and pulling me up too "Come on your freezing" he said wrapping me in a hug as we walked back out into the car park. As we got into his car I broke down "you did so well in there I am proud of you" he said rubbing my shoulder. We drove back to his parents in silence he knew I probably didn't want to talk right now.

Christmas day

"MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!" Alfie screamed through the house. Me and Joe were already up and in the front room with Izzy on my knee feeding.

"Jes Alf u excited?" Joe said laughing his head off.

"Hey you never call me Alf, my god Meg has grown on you" Alf said sitting down on the floor.

Everyone came into the front room and Amanda handed out presents to everyone. I sat and opened all of Izzy's, she got loads of little teddy bears some with first Christmas on, loads of pink dummies and bibs. My favourite was off Zoe and Alfie it was a frame with
"Isabel Rose Sugg
-23/10/15-"
all in pink it was amazing. Me and Joe just got simple things like little toys and clothes but we did get a walker as before next Christmas or her birth she will be hopefully trying to walk, as I did when I was about 11 months, but it also strengthens hee legs.

I got some Tiffany jewellery off Joe and a watch, make up off Alfie and Zoe and a voucher for Topshop off Amanda and Nick with a note saying "to restock your wordrobe after pregnancy". Poppy and Shaun, bless them, got me and Joe a couple weekend away without Izzy with a note saying "leave Izzy with us, you two get away and actaully enjoy your relationship you deserve to time together when there isn't a pregnancy getting in the way or a baby ;D" meaning they want us to go away and have sex basically. I wouldn't mind that if I am honest like.

The rest of the day went as normal, massive Christmas dinner, Izzy crying for 2 hours... oh yeah and a 3 hour drive to Bath to see Graham.

Perfect little Christmas day with the people I love.