Hate is a passionate Emotion ( Completed)

Chapter 20

Chapter 20

(first day of school)

I hid behind Brice as I watched mystery guy walk by. Brice started laughing as I gripped his shirt and shrunk into him.

" Is that him?" He asked me. I nodded vigorously.

" He doesn't look that creepy. He actually looks familiar." He told me.

" I don't care. Just hide me." I begged. He pushed me behind him even more and I watched mystery guy walk over to our group of friends. Nate, Chuck, and Iris looked at the guy and their faces lit up. Chuck gave him a man hug and patted his back. Iris jumped on his back and wrapped her arms around his neck. Nate just laughed at her enthusiasm. Then I realized she was trying to choke him.

" You evil bastard!" She yelled. I ran over to her and tried to pry her off of him.

" Iris let go!" I shouted. She grunted angrily but complied.

" Only you would try and attack a stranger." I told her.

" He's not a stranger. He's a evil deceiving bastard that doesn't care about anyone's feelings but his!" She growled. Chuck looked over at us confused and Nate held Iris's hand protectively.

" I'm confused. Why did you just attack my stalker and why are you cursing at him?" I asked.

" That's Josh!" She spat. I looked over at him in shock. My hands began to shake and blood from biting my tongue filled my mouth. I swallowed the thick liquid down and began to cough. Josh inched closer to me with a concerned expression.

" You bastard! Leave me the hell alone!" I cursed. I ran back to Brice and he held me close. I saw him looking over at Josh and he gave a shrug.

" Come with me. We have to talk about this with him." He told me. I shook my head.

" I'm not going over there! You can't make me." I sobbed. They were angry tears.

He was back, with his hair dyed as if he wanted to hide himself. He told me he's never dye his hair just because I told him how much I loved the color. Now what does this tell me? That he's a liar? That he doesn't care about my opinion anymore? Were all those calls for nothing? To tell me it was over? Was he really that desperate?

" Yes I can." He told me. He picked me up bridal style and brought me over to Josh. I was kicking and hitting his chest but he still wouldn't let me down.

" Josh." Brice said simply.

" Hey Brice." Josh answered awkwardly.

" Come come." He said. Josh complied and followed him to the AP Calculus room. We sat at the desk, me trying to escape multiple times, and Brice began asking questions.

" Did you or did you not break up with Caridad?" He asked.

" I didn't. I was just angry and I said something I didn't mean. I didn't call right away because I wasn't sure whether she was still mad or not and when she didn't pick up the phone, I just kept calling. I never gave up. After she changed her number, humiliating as that phone call was, I tried searching for her Facebook and her Twitter and her Tumble and anything that could get us in contact. I tried emailing her but I forgot that she deleted that account. I just wanted to talk to her." He said. He never took his eyes off of me. I pulled my sleeveless hoodie up and burrowed my face in my arms.

" Okay. And did you know that she was Caridad Tammy Diaz when you helped her with her engine?" Brice asked.

" No. She looked so different with the black undertone in her hair and even with her facial features. She became even more beautiful." I could feel his eyes on me. The tears began to flow as Brice rubbed my back. I didn't want to listen to this. I didn't want to listen to how I made a huge mistake. I didn't want to hear Josh tell me that he still loved me and never even thought of leaving me. And now, three years later he's back and practically causing havoc on my heart and mind. I wanted to scream.

" Do you love her?" Brice asked in a finalized tone.

" Never stopped and never will." My heart clenched and beat ramped against my cheat.

" Cari. Baby look at me." I looked up slightly, my head still resting on my arms.

" Do you still love him?" He asked me. His tone was filled with pain.

" I love you Brice. Your the only one that stuck by me." I told him.

" Cari. This is all a misunderstanding. You thought he truly broke up with you but he didn't. You ignored his calls meaning you ignored him trying to ask for forgiveness. You left him for me and I don't think that's right when I finally hear that he never meant to hurt you. Cari I love you but your better off with the one person that loves you more then I ever can fathom." Brice explained. I shook my head violently.

" Your seriously considering breaking us up so I'll be with HIM!" I spat.

" Its your decision baby. I never said that I wanted that."

" Well I don't want it." I turned to Josh.

" You put me through hell and I never would have come back if it weren't for Brice. We've been dating for almost three years now and we've had no problems yet we dated for three months and you made me go into a depression! How does that make you seem? Josh? Answer the question!" I shouted.

" It makes me seem like a horrible person and I'm sorry for that. I didn't know what was happening when I left and it wasn't my fault that I left. I had to beg my parents to let me come back when I turned 18. I live alone Caridad. I live in a small one bedroom apartment where the kitchen and living room are in the sleeping area. I came back because I wanted to be with you. Because I wanted things to be okay. I was going to let you be with Brice if it made you happy." He got up and walked towards the door.

" And I see now that you are happy." He opened the door and left but not before telling me this.

" Read the bottom of the letter. You probably missed that part." I heard a jingling and saw a red velvet bag connected to his belt before he closed the door.

He still has the reasons I love you stones... And I still had the album and the purple penny and the charm bracelet. I had every gift he ever gave me still in a box in my room, under my bed. The photo album was still snug in my bookcase. I felt Brice place an arm on my shoulder but I shrugged him off. I floated mindlessly out of the room and to my first period.

*

School ended and I drove home immediately. I grabbed the letter and looked at the bottom. There was nothing there. I turned in over and saw very small print. I looked closer to see a poem, my poem, the poem he wrote for me. The promise he wrote to me.

Everything

Your eyes capture in the light

It is surely such a beautiful sight

The blond of your hair on a sandy beach

The blue of those eyes clear as the sea

I love your smile white as can be

What's missing in any picture is you and me

We used to tease, we used to fight

But now everything is alright

The love I feel for you is nothing less then great

For you to love me too is worth the wait

As the waves crash against you and me

We will have some moments of misery

But love will always conquer all

And we will come out standing tall

I wanted to bawl. This poem had so many hidden messages within it. As if he knew this would happen. As he knew we'd have struggles but someday we'd have to break free of them. But how? How can I do that if I love Brice so much? Three years together and I can't just stop loving him to be with my first love again. I didn't know what to think.

I fell asleep that night with the photo album next to me and the charm bracelet on my wrist. I fell asleep to the jingle of the charms and the feel of my hand over the hard cover of the album. Our album. The one we made together. Everything together.