My Sexual Partner (Completed)

Chapter 41

"Si Carlo o! Ngiting gago, ngiting aso," kantyaw ni Arnel sa kanya habang dala nya ang bag ko. Paakyat na kami ng shuttle bus papunta ng Ilocos Norte mula Ilocos Sur. 'Di sya pinansin ni Carlo na malaki lang ang ngiti.

Arnel walked past us. Binulungan ko sya. "Eh ikaw ba't may supot ka? On tour tayo ah. Alam ba 'to ng girlfriend mo?" asar ko din sa kanya.

"Naiwan lang sa bag, grabe ka," sagot nya.

I thought since nakatikim na si Carlo ng akala kong gusto nya lang sa'kin, lalayo na sya from me but he did quite the opposite, mas lalo nyang inilapit ang sarili nya sa'kin. Mas lalo syang umasa.

Hindi na 'ko nagbubuhat ng gamit ko dahil sya na lagi ang may dala o hawak nun. Lagi nya 'kong sinusubuan ng kahit anong pagkain. Ipinipilit nya yun. Kulang na lang, sya ang ngumuya para sa'kin ng pagkain. He's acting like a boyfriend and the more he was doing it, the more I was feeling guilty.

I still wanted to know if mayroon pang Trite at ako. I didn't want to complicate it further if I emotionally gave in to Carlo.

But then again I must have complicated it more when we slept together. Oh well. I needed that to happen.

"Carlo sing me a song. Anything," I asked para hindi sya nakatanga lang sa'kin o sa ere na naka-ngiti. Isang oras pa bago kami makarating sa Pagudpud.

"Look into my eyes, you will see what you mean to me..."

Wrong activity. "Iba. 'Wag yan," putol ko sa kanya. 'Wag yung nakakadala.

"That was the first song that came to me eh." He continued, "Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for. You can't tell me, it's not worth dyin' for. You know it's true: Everything I do, I do it for you."

I grimaced. Hindi ko sya kinakaya. I held his face. "Ibang kanta Carlo. Please?" I begged his eyes.

While looking into my eyes he came up with: "Wise men say, only fools rush in. But I can't help falling in love with you..."

He's impossible. Ang ganda pa naman ng boses nya.

"...Shall I stay, would it be a sin? If I can't help falling in love with you," he continued.

"Hate me Carlo. Hate me. I'm not worthy."

"-Why do you think that? I can sing you any song you want Baby. If I do it, it's 'cause I want to and you deserve it."

I looked at him again. He was also intently looking at me.

He's new, fresh, he's here, he's always with me. Bakit ba hindi na lang sya?

Kasi may Trite na sa puso mo Gayle. Kasi hindi naalis. Hindi pa naaalis. Kahit galit ka, kahit alam mong hindi na ikaw ang girlfriend nya, andyan pa rin sya.

Hanggang kelan ka ba magho-hold on? Kelan ka magle-let go? Pa'no kung 'di na bumalik? Are you only self-inflicting pain when you can move on na naman?

He had ended it, Trite had said we are over. Napagod na rin siguro syang suportahan ako sa mga issues ko. Maybe he just doesn't trust me anymore. Anupaman ang dahilan, hindi nya binago yun. Wala syang tawag o text. Pinangatawanan nyang wala na talaga kayo.

Carlo reaffirmed his position in my life when he suddenly kissed me. I guess us sleeping together for him meant he finally had a chance. I let him and I gave in.

I want to feel something for him, I want to try. I'll give this a chance. Ayoko na ng complicated.

Biglang tumabi sa'min si Arnel. "Hoy lovebirds."

"Pare naman," reklamo ni Carlo dahil naistorbo kami.

Yumuko si Arnel. He even hesitated for a bit. "Alam kasi namin na... hindi kayo," sabi nya. "Sinabi sa'min ni Six."