"Pupunta sana kasi kaming Wanderland. Nag-yaya sya," sagot ko kay Trite.
Mabigat ang tingin nya sa'kin. Pumasok sya sa kwarto ko. "And this is your room now?Ano nang nangyari sa'yo!?"
He was mad, he was confused. "Uh kasi lumipat ako dito-"
"Have you and my cousin had sex?" he interrupted me and asked.
"Hindi Trite," sabi ko agad.
"How many times has he been here? In this room?" follow-up question nya.
Too many times. Kahit anong sabihin ko sa'yong number, sasamain yun sa'yo. "Several times," sagot ko. He was being unfair. Why couldn't he ask me ng maayos? Yung hindi ganitong may mga naiisip na sya bago sya mag-antay ng sagot ko.
"Has he slept in this bed... with you beside him?"
Oo. "Walang nangyari sa'min Trite," I said my voice appealing to him.
"How do you expect me to believe that?!!!" he screamed.
"Trite-"
"Si Sach yun! At ano bang ginawa nya sa'yo para makuha nya ulit ang loob mo? Binayaran ka ba nya?"
T*ngina. "Trite 'wag kang ganyan. Walang nangyari sa'min! He was only helpful. And he loves Kealy."
"What? Listen to yourself. You're not even making sense!"
Marami na kasing nangyari. Marami nang hindi mo alam at ayaw mong malaman sa pagtatanong mong ganyan. "Mahal nya si Kealy, plain and simple. I would have told you everything that's happening to me pero busy ka eh... ni hindi mo nga nakwento na nagkikita kayo ni Micah sa US," I said.
"She's not the issue," he breathed. "Nag-iinuman kayo dito ni Sach?" dagdag ni Trite when he saw empty beer bottles.
"That was last night," I said.
Umupo sya. Hinilamos nya ng kamay ang mukha. "What happened Abby?"
"Nothing happened Trite! Tayo pa rin," sugod ko sa kanya. I hugged his knees. "I love you and I've missed you so much at wala akong ginawa o ginagawang masama!"
Nagpumiglas sya sa yakap ko. "I don't believe you. After only several days? Ganito na?"
"Wala akong ginagawang masama Trite. Did you hear me? Why are you choosing to believe that I did wrong?" I asked trying to search his kind eyes that he had for me. Wala na yun. His eyes were hurt settling on what was starting on his head na puro hindi nangyari.
"We're over." He stood up and walked out.
Nanghina ako. I lay on the floor in shock. After how long I don't know, I cried.
Pvtangina. Pvtangina talaga.
Hindi ko malaman kung saan ako kukuha ng lakas para ibangon ang sarili ko sa sahig. Umiyak lang ako ng umiyak sa sama ng loob.
Why couldn't he trust me? Am I not to be trusted now? Is it because he has impure thoughts about someone else as well? Kaya hindi nya magawang maisip na I was faithful to him?
Napapikit ako when I realized what I realized: Mahal pa nga ba nya talaga si Micah kaya 'di nya mapaniwalaan na walang ako at Sach?
Sach came and saw me on the floor. He rushed to me. "Anong nangyari sa'yo?" he asked looking for something wrong with me. He held me up.
Napapikit ako. Umiling. Dinama ko ng paulit-ulit yung sakit na nakipag-hiwalay sa'kin si Trite nang ganun ganun lang.
After everything we've been through? His judgment hurt!
"Gayle!" ulit ni Sach.
"Trite broke up with me," I said and noisily cried.
Napabuntung-hininga sya. "Gago yun eh," bulong nya.
"He was just here. He thought may nangyari sa'tin."
"Gago!" Sach shouted.
He was about to stand up and I knew he'd go to him to tell him otherwise so I stopped him. "'Wag na," I said. Umiling ako. "You'll only get in trouble with your Dad."
"He needs to know the truth!" he said.
"I have told him the truth. Pero hindi nya pinaniwalaan. He doesn't want to believe in him and me anymore. He doesn't trust me. Meron na syang truth na mali. How could we go on?"
"Pero nasasaktan ka."
"Mas masasaktan ako kung ipipilit ko yung sarili ko sa ayaw Sach. Ayaw nya na sa'kin!" Humagulgol ako like there's no tomorrow. Ibinuhos ko lahat ng sama ng loob sa balikat ni Sach.
"Tama na," sabi at hagod nya sa likod at buhok ko.
"Ayaw nya na sa'kin."
"Don't worry, malalaman nya ang totoo. Kung hindi, ipipilit ko sa kanya ang totoo. Makikita nya."
"'Wag. Mapapahamak ka lang sa Dad mo."
"Ang gago nya eh."
I looked at my phone. Walang text, o kahit ano from Trite. Napansin ko rin ang oras. "Sige na Sach. May Wanderland ka pa diba?"
Umiling sya. "Hindi na. Dito na lang tayo. Sasamahan kita."
"Thanks Sach."
"At saka kasi may favor ako," sabi nya. "Nakita ko na kasi yung full name nung Doc Ali na sinasabi mo. Gusto ko kasing matawagan sana si Kealy sa phone. Could you maybe check if you have his Facebook account? Pero kahit mamaya na o bukas na. Sige, iyak ka lang muna ngayon."
Nangiti ako. "Kealy should really talk to you. Ngayon ko na iche-check."
Inisa-isa namin ang Facebook friends ni Kealy dahil wala syang friend na Ali lang or Allan or Al or Allie or Doc or Dr. Hindi madaling gawin yun dahil napakaraming friends ni Kealy.
"Baka walang Facebook si Doc?" I offered.
"What's this?" turo nya sa isang picture. I clicked it and it enlarged.
Napasinghap ako sa nakita. It was a picture of Kealy and Ali in Vegas. They got married. I looked at Sach. "Uh Sach."
His face was indescribable. Napasandal si Sach sa dingding. "They're married," he quietly said.
"I'm sorry."
"Alis na 'ko," he said.
"Wait. Um, dito ka muna."
Umiling sya and left.
BINABASA MO ANG
My Sexual Partner (Completed)
RomansaI never thought I'd love Trite especially with how we started. I thought it was just that, sexy and playful. But I eventually did love him and he loved me too. He wanted to enter my world but I told him it's difficult. He then hated me for things h...
