Innocent ✔️

Fifty four

Walking outside of the room, I felt powerful. I knew everything I said was right and I knew he understands now why I hate him so much. Jess and Nina were waiting downstairs and when they saw me they walked closer to me asking me what he wanted. I explained them everything and smiled when they cheered for how proud they were of me. Jackson worked so hard to make me feel equal to everyone else, to make me feel confident and proud of who I am and I think it was time to show him who he wanted me to be.

Being pushed down for years built this anger in me little by little but today the tank got full and blew up in Jonathan's face and I was happy because it was the right moment to show who I really was not only to Jackson but to everyone else including Jonathan. It was all because of Jackson, he bought it up to me and showed me who I really was and the first time using it was to defend him. A few years ago I never though I would be able to stand in front of my master and say no, you're wrong, you don't understand. But I did it. I did it today telling Jonathan that he means nothing to me. I will never be able to forget the way he looked at me while I talked, so wordless, so speechless not knowing what to say to defend himself. I hit it where he hated it the most and knew how to get to him the way I wanted to.

"Ana?" A voice called from behind me tapping my shoulder and made me turn around. Rose. I sighed and crossed my arms asking for what she wants. "I just came by to say sorry." Her annoying voice said.

"Sorry for what?" I blinked.

"Look, I know I've been such a bitch to you for all this time and I hated it seeing Jackson so in love with you. I've tried for years to get his attention and it never worked. I really love him and seeing him picking you over me just got to me good." She started grabbing my attention. "But when I saw you throwing Jonathan off the way you did upstairs made me just respect you so much and I just came to say sorry. I didn't want you to be mad at me." She gave me a small smile.

I sighed and shook my head "I'm not mad at you." I said. No, I don't love her but she apologized.

"So you forgive me?" She smiled at me bringing my lips to return it back at her.

"No I'm not." My mother taught me to be kind. And that's what I will be.

"Great!" She cheered and handed me a cup.

"No I don't drink." I said giving it back but she pushed it back at me and said "It's not alcohol, it's just jus." She said.

"No thanks." I shook my head.

"Please! To know that you forgive me?" She pouted. I closed my eyes and opened them again before taking the cup on my hand. "Cheers." She held her own higher so I hit it with mine and we giggle in union.

***

A few minutes later we were both laughing together in a friendly way that I somehow felt wasted and uncontrollable of my own body. I didn't know if it was because I was tired or because I really was having fun, all I knew was that I was laughing at the most unfunny stuff ever.

She looked at me smiling but something about her smile told me that something is wrong. "Stay here, don't move, I will come back." She said, looking on her phone. I nodded then took another sip of my third or forth...or fifth...I don't know how much did I take of that juice. It just taste so good. She stood up and walked away pressing her phone to her ear.

I looked around to all the people dancing angrily. I hate them all so much. They were all manipulative assholes that just act lovely and sweet in front of the people they need. To have what they want. Did I just say assholes? I giggled. Jackson has a really big influence on me, he should know that.

I took another sip, trying to contain myself from standing up from where I was standing and yelling at everyone, telling them that they are all fake. Some of them were eating each other's face, some were dancing to the playing music, some were drinking and some were just talking with red cups in their hands. Which group is the better? They were all here only to have fun even though they attended Jackson's party before. Were they even friends with Jackson? Or Jonathan for that matter?