School Dayz

Chapter 30

Hmm y'all love doubting my Kam 🙃

Kamden

Pulling up to her house I cut the engine. Sitting there for a couple of minutes I contemplated whether or not I wanted to do this or not. Sighing I took a deep breath before getting out the car. Jogging to the door I knocked lightly. Waiting there I thought about running back to my car and going back to lay with my girl. Before I could turn to leave the door swung open and she smiled lightly before grabbing my hand and pulling me in.

"I know this is probably the last place you want to be but I couldn't think of anyone else to call."

"It's cool I guess." I nervously pinched at my neck cursing myself for even coming over here in the first place.

"Well umm follow me." I followed her up the stair case. We passed a couple of rooms before she stopped at the main one. Turning to face me she gave me a look to assure this was something I wanted to do. Nodding I bit my lip. She opened the door to the room.

The sight in itself caused my heart to break a little and tears to swell up in my eyes. Kyra's mom was trying to aid my dad as he went through a seizure. Vomit was coming out of his mouth as his body convulsed. Not being able to watch anymore I left the room. Kyra followed after me.

"Kam please don't leave."

"Why the fuck would you call me here to see that shit man? You think I don't feel bad enough that the nigga dying and a part of me really don't give a damn. Hell I wish it would just happen already. But then I see that shit and I wanna take that pain for him. I'm fucked up." I paced the floor running my hands through my hair. I didn't know what I felt nor how to feel. Shoulda stayed my black as in the bed.

For a while Kyra and I sat in the hallway in silence. Her mom had came out to tell us it was ok to come in but I wasn't ready.

"What kinda cancer he got?" I spoke up breaking the deadly silence.

"Brain."

"Damn." After that it was quiet again. Grabbing my phone I dialed her number. I needed her if I was gone swallow my pride and go in there.

"Hello? Kam where are you? Are you ok?" I could hear the worry in her voice and it made me smile a little bit.

"Yea baby I'm good for now but I don't know for how long. I'm at my dads."

"What's the address?" I could hear her moving around so I was sure she was getting ready to come to where ever I was.

"Imma text it to you."

"Ok I'm on my way." We said our goodbyes before hanging up.

I dropped her the pin to my location before handing Kyra my phone.

"Imma go in here and talk to him. Depending on what he say will determine which Kam leaves that room. I called my girl to come just in case. When she call just instruct her on how to get to me." She nodded.

"Go ahead. He really needs this Kam."

"I ain't doing it for him I'm doing it for me."

Taking a deep breath I rubbed my sweaty palms off on my shirt before entering the room again. This time he laid in the bed in a fresh pair of pajamas. His head slowly lifted to see who it was. He smiled a little once he recognized me. Patting the spot next to him he motioned for me to come sit with him.

Walking closer to the bed I leaned against the near by wall.

"I thought you wouldn't come."

" I wasn't but I have one hell of a girlfriend."

"Well thank her for me, I hope I'll be able to thank her personally one day."

"Why?"

"Well, it's always better to apologize in person."

"That's not what I'm talkin about man, why?"

"I was young then Kam and I had a problem."

"That's bullshit and if you bout to bullshit me we can end this charade right now." He began to cough a little. I felt uneasy being in the room alone with him sick like this. If he had another episode I wouldn't know what to do to help him.

"Look Kam," he tried to raise up in the bed as best he could. I watched him struggle a little debating on helping him before walking over and helping him sit up. Taking my place back on the wall I nodded for him to continue talking.

"Thanks, but umm as I was saying no excuse in the world would justify my actions towards you and your mother. No amount of apologies could take that pain I caused away. Basketball was my life I loved it more than anything and when they told me I wouldn't play again I lost it. I literally lost my mind. I started drinking heavy and even turned to drugs to try and cope with it all. At that time I forgot about my family selfishly and only cared about myself. Y'all didnt deserve that and I take full blame for it I do. I ruined my marriage and my relationship with my son. That was all me." 

"I got a anger problem. I take out my anger for you on the people around me that really care about me. Everything that's wrong with me is your fault. My inability to trust. My lack of being able to express emotion. You fucked me up. I imagined this conversation a million times in my mind and how it would go. I often said I wished you would drop dead and here you are dying and I take it back. Thats not my heart man. All I wanted in life was a dad that supported me and loved me."

"Kam son I'm sorry."

"I hear you I do but sorry don't bring you back to my first basketball game or when I won my first championship. Sorry didn't make you come back after what you did and apologize so that I didn't have to harbor this hate for so long. Sorry don't change that as a father you wasn't shit to me. Sorry don't change the fact that Kyra and her mother were good enough for you to change your ways and me and mines weren't. Sorry don't take the beatings I received away. Sorry don't reverse the past it really don't. So I hear your apology and I forgive you because you missed out on being in my life. You missed out on something special so that's your lost."

He was quiet as he started to cough again. Tears rolled down his cheeks and I held mine in. I was tired of letting him be the reason for my tears. He missed out on something great.

"I understand I do. I thank you for coming to talk to me after everything. Your mom told me all the things you've accomplished and I'm proud I'm truly proud. It probably don't mean much coming from me but it's the truth. And you're right, when I left you were still a little boy and now you stand in front of me as a man. I can't do anything but respect you and the man you grew into. I love you son I probably didn't show it then and it may have took me until now to say it but Kamden I do love you son."

Not being able to keep my poker face I lifted my shirt to wipe my face of the tears that were falling.

"I love you too." With that it was too much for me to stay in the room with him so stepped out. Kyra and Zenobia waited in the hallway. Upon seeing me Nobi stood up opening her arms for me to walk into. She wrapped her arms around my neck as I clutched her waist.

"I'm proud of you baby. So proud." She whispered to me. I kissed her neck just staying like that with her not wanting to let go. I felt as if the weight of the world was lifted off my shoulders. Shit wasn't perfect at all now it was far from it, but I was ready to close that dark chapter in my life and move forward.

"Thank you for being here for me and shit."

"As long as I love you I'll always be here for you Kam always."

"Promise you'll never stop loving me."

"I promise as long as you promise the same." Letting go of my neck she held out her pinky. Locking it with mine I brought it to my lips kissing it.

"I promise."

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