The Rejected Shadow

Comfort.

By now I had tried mind linking Peter and Caleb about Lexi escaping, but both their blocks were put up.

I was walking blindly in the wood, trying to follow Lexi's scent
A few minutes later I heard her, and I ran to where I heard her, and what I saw brought me to my knees, Lexi was at the clearing crying pleading and taking to someone
"Please.... Pl...ease.... I..I can't ....do this....
I can't.... Please....
It's too much... Please....
Please..... I don't.... want to do this.......
I'm not ..... strong enough....
Please just....... Just take me....... away please.....
I can't do this....
I want to..... die please....!!!"
Here I got out of my hiding place and went up to her, I couldn't bear the thought of loosing her, she meant soo much to me,.
She was startled to see me but when my eyes connected with hers, she started crying in earnest
I hugged her close to me and tried to comfort her
"Alexis.... Shush..... Shush... It's going to be OK.... It's all ok... " I said desperately, I couldn't stand to see her in such pain....
"N..o. no it's never going to be OK..... " she replied crying ,
She continued and said
"I don't want to be the chosen one..... I want to be normal.... Ask her to take it away Ethan..." She pleaded with me
"Please.... Ask her to Make the pain go away.... "
I felt soo helpless, and irritated with myself. I would do anything to take away her pain but I was powerless against what the moon goddess had planned
My heart breaking and my wolf whimpering in my head I apologized
"I'm soo sorry Alexis, I can't.... I'm soo sorry.... But your a fighter.... You can beat this pain.....you are strong..."
She shook her head and cried her hot tears falling on my shoulder and every drop that fell, felt like hot coal showing me how useless I was when she needed me
She then said
"No....no I'm not strong.... People just assume..... That...
I can't do this Ethan, I can't..
I want to die.... "
My heart stopped when she said that, didn't she know how many people loved her? Didn't she see how strong she was?
I said pulling her away from me and holding her by her shoulder
"No No Alexis no. Don't think that way..
There are so many people who love you... "
Here she broke and pushed me away and stood up making my wolf whimper when he lost contact with her
She screamed looking directly at me
"WHO? WHO LOVES ME ETHAN?. NO ONE. I DIDN'T GET REJECTED ONCE !. THIS IS MY SECOND TIME!. NO ONE WANTS ME.... IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR THEM. DON'T YOU GET IT??... I WILL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH!. MY STEP PARENTS WANTED TO SELL ME!. MY FIRST FRIEND WAS FRIGHTED OF ME.... NO ONE LOVES ME ETHAN... No one cares...... " she cried falling to her knees and putting her head in her hands
I crawled upto her and hugged her close willing my strength to her and in that moment I just blurted my feelings for her
"Hush....... Lexi, I care OK.... I will always care...
You are strong..... You are soo strong baby ... It's going to be OK.... "

A few minutes later she fell asleep on me, tired out after all this, I slowly shifted her to so I could carry her bridal style.
As I was coming out of the woods both Peter and Caleb were waiting for me and then Peter asked
"Is she all right?"
I shrugged and said
"She's just mentally exhausted....
She'll be OK.... I think... "

The next day I was there when she woke up
She smiled at me softly making my heart beat faster I wondered how she couldn't hear it and said
"Good morning... "
"Good morning.... " I replied smiling at her
"Do you want anything?" I asked
"Water?" She questioned

Once she had drunk the water
We both lapsed into a comfortable silence, it seemed like as if yesterday's rant was forgotten
I wondered if she remembered it and purposely didn't say anything about it or if she had truly forgotten about it....

But I didn't say anything because I was a coward and was worried what would happen to be if she didn't return my feelings,
I had previously told myself and everyone around me that I didn't believe in mates or bring in a relationship but Lexi had made me change my opinion about that, and now I was worried whether or not she would accept me.