The Rejected Shadow

Trust in Yourself.

I was confused all this was too much to take in and it must have shown on my face because then Faramir spoke saying
"I know you have many doubts and questions.... And I promise you that all will be answered in its time...."
He continued, his eyes and body language pleading with me to not fight or question what was going to happen in future.
"Your life ahead of you is filled with pain and sacrifice Alexis.
You can only trust yourself..... Believe that you are good enough to fight..... Use your sadness and anger to fuel the power inside you..... " he said sadly looking off into the distance, thinking about something he sighed and continued
"There will be times when the council will not accept you as the child from the prophesy.... Don't be discouraged... Because I know that you are the child that my friend talks about because if u were a normal human girl then you would have left this madness a long time ago... "

"Why me???... Why not someone else?." I asked that one question that was clawing at my insides.
"I have no idea Alexis. And if I could change the person who could carry out this task.... I wouldn't... Do you know why?...." He asked looking straight at me, it was like he was seeing right inside me...... And saw all my pain doubts and suffering but still accepted me. When I didn't answer, he continued pride joy and determination lacing his voice. Though I don't know why he had those emotions
"Because I have seen you for a long time now.... You have capabilities that even you didn't know .... Only you have to trust in yourself.....
I know that you think people don't love you or don't notice the sacrifice you make...
Let me tell you that "you were given this life because you are strong enough to live it" don't let anyone put you down... Fight for what you believe in.
Every pain that you go through.... Makes you stronger to face what's coming. Don't give up hope cause there are people who want to see you fail.... Don't give them the satisfaction to gloat that they were right...
I know that you have urges to cut to relieve the pain or the tension.... Or to even know if you feel anything emotional...
Don't do that, the situation may not be right or favourable right now, but just hold on 10 years from now you will look back and see that because you held on to hope, things changed. There cannot be darkness all the time, The sun will shine and that will be a new beginning for you... Don't give up now, not when you have gotten this far... "

"There is power in each one of us, power to become better than what we are now and the power to hold on and move forward. It is how you use that power that defines you... Not the circumstances around you... "

"Do you understand?" He asked getting up and shaking himself....
"I think so.." I said carefully. I didn't understand everything but I was willing to take the risk since there was no one else who could.
"You will understand better with time... Don't worry... Now get up dust yourself and go back to the pack house find out the prophesy about yourself and then think about what you should do. "
"Will I ever see you again?"
"I do not know young one... I do not know the future....
The future will change based on the decisions that you will make'

"Wow... Great way to ease my nerves... "
He chuckled in my mind....
He turned around to leave when I blurted
"Wait... Can u just ask you one more question?."
When he nodded I knew that he wasn't upset
"How can you talk to me in my mind when we are not related in any way?" I asked
I am a spirit young one. .I can talk to anyone at anytime in their mind.. He replied smiling and then
The wolf bowed and a strong gush of wind forced me to close my eyes..... And just a minute later the wolf was gone ..... Leaving me to my own thoughts.
Now how do I get out from here?
I just turned around and saw that I was where I was before I followed the blue ball.... So i knew my way back to the pack house from here.
So with hope burning in my heart.... I walked back to the pack house. .
Now a different person... Who was not willing to let the small and careless talk of people get to me.