Just Can't Let Her Go

Chapter 16

Chapter 16

Fear and Brokenness

 

Harry's eyes flew open when he heard her screaming as she were getting murdered. Night terrors. He watched brokenheartedly as she screamed out in an unreal pain. He couldn't do anything to save her, unless he woke her up. His hands shook her shoulders. "Alicia!" He begged, almost crying from seeing her like this. "Baby, wake up. Please!" He begged, shaking her a little more.

"No! No! Please!" Alicia yelled out, thrashing around as if she were running. Suddenly she awoke to Harry's frantic voice. He cupped her face in his hands and kissed her lips softly. "Baby girl, I'm here. What's wrong?" He asked almost in tears, and that was evident. "I dreamt that he got me. The man who killed Drew, I dreamed he found me when you weren't here. He was hurting me and our baby, and you... you couldn't save me." She whimpered out.

Harry was broken. Right then and there. What the fuck had he done to her? Her mental psyche now tarnished, and probably had been for a while now. This killed him. The real Harry. The one who loved Alicia torridly, and wouldn't be able to live without her. Not the mentally unstable Harry. He was shaking with remorse and pain.

Alicia looked deeply into his eyes. Seeing every emotion as he felt them. Pain, loss, emptiness, fear, and heart-brokenness. These were the eyes of someone who was truly broken and crushed. He looked as if she had cut out his heart and stomped on it. He was unequivocally shattered. She didn't know why, and that tormented her. Why was he sad? She need to love him up or her heart would split in two.

"Harry, baby, please don't cry it was only a dream." Alicia promised as she showered his soft visage with kisses. Harry didn't respond only started to let the tears fall down his cheeks. She made heartfelt commitments by the boatloads. One after another. Promising to always love him. Stay by his side. Never leave him. Comfort him. Anything she could think of.

Harry listened to her string of loving vows, and felt his walls tear down even more. How could he take this? His baby nearly in tears swearing up and down, anything and everything just to soothe him. He kissed her back softly. "Alicia, I'll protect you. No one will ever lay a hand on you. I love you more than simple words can express." He sputtered. "No one will hurt you." He made an empty promise. He'd already hurt her, so so dearly. He wouldn't and simply couldn't except that fact though.

"I'm sorry." Harry mumbled inaudibly.