Darkness

Chapter 16

Reaching the top of the stairs I lean my arms against the wall for support and close my eyes catching my breath. The whole five minutes I've been in this house I've managed to get up the stairs in three minutes. That's a record if you ask me! Two minutes to get through the house with Ava and Lilith yapping in my ear and three minutes actually getting up there with only bones help. Last time it was five minutes so I guess I'm making some type of progress..

Grinding my teeth together I try and push back the scorching pain on my back and continue making my way to my bathroom. After I reached the top bones told me Lilith and Ava would be at my aid the whole day, anything I needed, anything I wanted was mine. If i wasn't in the state I was in and mainly the reason I would have loved it, but right now I just just want a bath, a set of pain killers set out for me when I'm done and to be left alone for the day, maybe the next as well.

Opening my door I shuffle into my room and close the door. Going first to my bathroom I leave the bedroom door unlocked for the girls to bring my pain killers in. Stopping in front of the mirror I look at myself.

The person staring back at me is not me.

It's the broken me that has been strong for too long.

I would like to say I'm a strong ass tuff girl but sadly that's not true. For years I've been doing the same thing.
Get tortured, recover, hide feelings, become a emotionless monster...

The tortured part is not so much a problem anymore. I hardly ever feel anything so that's a good thing, but it's also bad as I can feel everything at the same time.

It's like a switch, only though I don't get to choose when I flick ur or not, it messes with me and my mind.
Honestly it's mainly the reason I'm so...broken.

Looking at my pale skin I i reach up and touch my cut lip lightly, feeling the slight sting from contact I pull back and roam over my features. Same old, same old. A little thin for my liking but nothing a bit of chocolate could do, baggy eyes but nothing a little make up can do and last but not least, a broken girl with no heart, nothing a little love can do...right?

Looking away I turn the nobs on the shower and wave my hands through the water when I get the right temperature. Stepping back a little I carefully strip out of my black sports bra. Granting with each movement I decide to just do it.

Pulling it fast over my head I bite my lip suppressing a cry.

Breathing hard I turn my head and look at my bare back in the mirror.

Ohhh....

I guess I shouldn't be surprised. It's not like I expected anything less, one thing my father does is complete his task to his fullest and daumm does he take its seriously when his task is me.

Pulling off my pants I step into the shower and flinch straight away when the warm water hits my back. Throwing my hands onto the wall I shut my eyes tightly and clench my teeth together.

Just as I'm breathing deeply and hissing at the pain I hear a soft knock on the bathroom door.

Leaning my body flush against the wall and away from the water I breath a slight sigh of relief.

"What?"I call out

"Darkness it's me, Ava" I hear Ava call from the other side of the door.

Right about now I would have been rolling my eyes at her stupidness. Of course it's her.

"What do you want Ava?" I sigh resting my head against my arm.

There's a couple second pause before she calls out again.