Darkness

Chapter 20

What seems like forever I'm still seated in Aidens lap, watching as his eyes stare deep into my own. Looking back into his perfect set of blue eyes a thought runs through my mind before I drop my smile,

It'll never work...your bad, he's good...your too broken

Sighing I close my eyes and stand up fast but not to fast, watching as he frowns he looks up at me with a new emotion swimming in his eyes.

"What's wrong?.." Aiden asks with disappointment laced in his voice,

Me...that's what's wrong.

Then as I look into his dad puppy dog eyes I give him a look of emptiness before picking up my shirt and slipping it back on just as the school bell rings.

"That was a mistake..." I say turning my back before he could say another word,

The last thing I see is the look of pure rejection as I leave..

Reaching the bottom steps I see Ava waiting down the bottom of the bleachers with a frown.

"What the hell was that!" I says pointing behind me,

Making a face at her I grab her arm and rush the both of us out of there as fast as I can.

"Darkness what the hell, whee are we going" Ava sighs trying to stop us,

Looking around I push us behind a tree and face Ava to me,

"Ava, i really stuffed up this time.. I kissed him" I whisper shout throwing me hands up to my face and rubbing my eyes,

Feeling Ava stare at me I keep my eyes closed.

"And that is a bad, why...?" Ava says extending the 'why'

Grunting I look at her,

"Because...because...because...argh! Forget it" I sigh giving up.

Pulling my face back to hers she makes me look her in the eyes,

"Tell me darkness, I'd rather hear it from my ears them from your head" Ava States talking about the mind reading thing.

Mentally face palming myself I sigh,

Of course! How could I forget about that.

"It was a mistake ever walking up to him...all I'm saying is that it was a complete mistake. One which I'll never make again" I silently vow to myself the last part.

Leaning my head against the tree I stand there with my eyes closed and shut out Ava's curious question,

Oh man..I really fucked up this time. I mean how could I have been so stupid! All my life I have never been this stupid and reckless, my life has been quiet, dull and simple until now.

And I don't like it one bit...argh! What have I gotten myself into.

"Can you just drop it Ava!" I say snapping at Ava opening my wides

Closing her mouth quickly she just stares back at me with saddness in her eyes,

I know she's my bestfriend and all but she honestly annoys the fuck out of me sometimes! Like now.

Taking my mind off of it for a second I think of something and a urge to smoke appears out of nowhere.

"Do you still have a lighter in your bag?" I ask with a sigh,

I need a smoke. I'm not that bad with them but I would say I've got kind of a habit with them, and a couple of days ago I surprisingly found out Ava does to...weird I know.