You And Me Against The World | ✅

Chapter 5

I wake up more refreshed and relaxed than ever and realize it's because of the man currently holding me tightly in his arms. I must have turned around while I was asleep, since we are in a spooning position right now. Tobias is still asleep by the regular rise and fall of his chest. His lips are slightly parted and his breath hits the skin on the back of my neck with every exhale. I want to get out of bed but I don't want to wake him up. He needs his rest, especially after everything we've been through the past twenty-four hours. I decide to lay still and wait for him to wake up on his own. After all, there's nowhere I would rather be and no one I would rather be with. I smile.

"I love it when you smile," he suddenly says, sleep still thick in his voice.

"You are awake," I say surprised. "I didn't wake you, did I?" I ask.

"No." I turn in his arms and look up into his dark blue eyes. I could get lost in these eyes.

"Hey," I say grinning like an idiot.

"Hey back," he says before kissing my lips gently. "Did you sleep well?"

"Yeah, I did actually. You?"

"Best nap ever," he says smiling. His expression changes and I wonder why. "You never answered my question," he says. What question? He must understand my silence, because he kisses the tip of my nose before saying "living with me". Oh, that.

"Yes. I want to live with you. I love you and want to spend as much time as possible with you," I say honestly.

"Great. I will buy a couch then. Even though I don't mind sleeping on the floor, during winter it might get a little bit chilly," he says jokingly.

"I don't mind a couch, but you are not going to sleep on it" I say seriously. He raises an eyebrow and looks with a curious expression at me.

"And where would I sleep?" he asks.

"Here. With me. I don't mind. I don't mind at all," I say, a blush coloring my face.

"You don't have to," he says seriously, knowing that I felt uncomfortable ever since he appeared in my fear landscape.

"I know, but I want to. The reason I slept so good is you."

"Are you sure?" he asks again.

"Yes, I swear. I'm still not ready for more, but I'm comfortable with you lying next to me," I assure him.

"Alright. I'm glad to hear that," he says. "Tris, there are a few things I have to tell you. After you fell asleep I thought of what you told me. What you shared with me is big and I thank you for trusting me to tell me something so important and personal. I never had anyone trusting me that way and I want to be able to tell you all of my secrets as well. But I'm afraid this can only happen in time."

"I know, Tobias. Whenever you are ready to share I'm here for you and don't worry, everything you tell me stays between the two of us," I say reassuringly.

"I know. Same goes for me. But I want to tell you at least one of my secrets," he tells me. I'm curious to find out what he has to say to me. "Tris, the reason why I recognized your divergence is ... I'm divergent myself."

I sit up and look at Tobias as if he suddenly grew a second head. I don't know what to say.

"Why didn't you tell me sooner?" I ask, a little angry.

"When?" he asks defensively.

"When you confronted me about my divergence perhaps?" I ask.