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Chapter 86

The next few weeks since the first fear landscapes went by quicker than I thought. Tobias allowed me to do more alone giving me a chance to learn for the years to come. Even though it's hard at times I really do enjoy being an instructor. I will definitely return next year for the job.

We have two weeks left until initiation is over. The final test is freaking all the initiates out, but all of us instructors tried to assure them that it'll be fine. To our surprise, most of them learned how to handle the sims and even those who still struggle aren't that bad.

Tobias allowed the initiates two days off, which basically means they have three days in total since Sunday was implicitly free. We decided to throw a typical Dauntless party and Christina and Shauna offered to organize everything. I'm very grateful for their help.

The faction received Dwayne as our fifth leader with open arms and I can tell he likes it. He hasn't changed a bit, he is still the same person, which is great. Some people let themselves be overcome by new found power and change drastically. But not Dwayne.

I'm seven weeks pregnant now and I'm more excited than ever. I lost some weight due to the constant vomiting. Whoever named the morning sickness this way must have been an idiot. It happens all day long and even at night sometimes. At first Tobias was freaked out and rushed me to the hospital, almost killing the staff on call when they dared to ask him to calm down. Only after I told him that I would divorce him if he doesn't stop yelling he seemed to calm down, but started muttering. Thankfully, Addison was in that day and received us. She checked me and the baby and assured us we were both fine. Tobias was still unconvinced and asked a million questions. Addison smiled and answered each and every one of them. It's sweet that he cares so much, but sometimes I feel like kicking his dumb ass.

By now Tobias always carries around saltines or lemon drops, which calm the nausea. He even asked mom and Evelyn and Hanna and basically every woman in Dauntless who was ever pregnant for advice on what to cook for me. Whoever thought instructor or leader Four is intimidating hasn't seen soon-to-be-daddy Four. But all these people only get glimpses of the crazy Four. I get the full load. We even fought a few times, our arguments ranging from him leaving the toilet seat up to him being insensitive; basically, everything is his fault. After we both calm down he always apologizes although most of the time he is innocent, but since he read probably even more on pregnancy than I have he figured to just give in.

Yesterday, we went for a check-up. Addison showed us our baby and explained what we saw (or didn't and what was currently going on in my womb). She explained that our baby's face becomes more defined this week, a tiny mouth hole, tongue, nostrils and ear indentations are visible. His or her eyes are wide open, but they don't have irises yet. Also, the umbilical cord is now visible. She explained how our baby is ¼ inch long, about the size of a mint drop and as heavy as an eyelash. It sounds tiny, but our baby grew approximately 10 000 times since conception. Crazy, huh? Tobias and I couldn't take our eyes off the monitor and like last time Addison printed a picture for us. Tobias even joked that at this rate we might need a photo album to document everything. So, I decided to just do that. I went to the bookstore in Dauntless and bought one just for the pregnancy.

I'm currently getting ready for the party. We decided to just show up for a while and then go up stairs to Uriah's and Marlene's apartment for a long overdue game of Candor or Dauntless. I look myself up and down in the mirror and stop my traveling gaze on my tummy. I'm not showing yet, but my little baby boy is in there, safe and sound. Tobias walks in and embraces me from behind, kissing my shoulder. The silky black satin knee-length cocktail dress makes me feel sexy and by the look Tobias is giving me he thinks so too.

"You look gorgeous," he says.

"Thank you," I say admiring him in the mirror. He is wearing black dress pants and a crimson shirt. "You don't look so bad yourself," I tell him and turn around in his arms. I press my body closer to his and he bends forward to kiss me softly.