You And Me Against The World | ✅

Chapter 39

The next morning, I wake up and find myself securely wrapped in Tobias's arms. He holds me tightly against his chest, his lips pressed to my neck. I can feel the steady rise and fall of his chest indicating he's still fast asleep. I try to look at the clock on my nightstand, but I'm unable to move without waking him up. It's still dark outside, so it can't be too late. I decide to just lay there.

After a while Tobias starts to move and I think he's waking up, but it seems he is having a dream. He is tossing and turning now and all I can think of is to shake him awake to help him escape whatever is haunting him.

"Tobias, honey, wake up. It's just a dream," I softly say. When he doesn't react, I shake a little harder. "Baby, wake up." He opens his eyes and looks around confused. When he finally meets my eyes, he calms and smiles a strangled smile before wrapping me in his arms, like I might disappear if he doesn't keep me rooted. "Honey, it's okay. I'm here," I say, trying to calm him.

"You were gone. I looked for you everywhere, but you were gone," he says with an unsteady voice.

"Baby, I'm here. I'm not leaving. I promise. I love you so much I could never leave you," I say. I know he sometimes feels like I might leave him, like everyone else in his life, but I'm not. He needs to understand that. But fear is irrational.

"I love you, Tris. I couldn't live without you," he says shaking a little.

"Tobias, look me in the eyes," I say and he pulls away just enough for our eyes to meet again. "I'm not going anywhere. I promise. There is nowhere I'd rather be than here. And you are the only person I want to be with for the rest of my life. Tobias Eaton, you are the love of my life," I say with tears in my eyes. This is the first time I admit this, not just to him, but to myself as well. I somehow knew it for a while, but now it's real. He looks at me stunned for a second before he kisses me hungrily, like it might be our last kiss. When we pull apart we are both breathless and panting heavily. He rests his forehead on mine for a moment before looking at me with tears in his eyes.

"I'm so happy, Tris. I love you more than anything in this world, but I always feared that..." he doesn't finish because I know what he wanted to say. I shake my head at him and grab his right hand. I put it over my heart and place my hand over his.

"Tobias, can you feel this?" I ask and he nods. "Every beat, even before we met was for you. I didn't know why I was alive until I met you. I was always so different and I always felt that something important was missing. When our eyes locked for the first time my heart literally skipped a beat and started beating in sync with yours. Can you feel this?" I ask pointing at our hearts. He nods.

"They beat in sync? How?" he asks puzzled.

"I don't know. One night I couldn't fall asleep. You were having a nightmare and when I wanted to shake you awake I touched your chest and felt your heart. It was beating fast and I realized mine did that too for some reason. I held my right hand over your heart and my left over mine. They were beating in sync. I tried it out several other times, after making love or just being in each other's arms. Whenever one of us gets too excited for some reason the other one feels it too. I don't know how it's happening, but it is. You are part of me and I'm part of you. Nothing in this world will ever change that." He pulls me close to him and we kiss tenderly.

"I'm sorry for not believing more in you and your love for me," he says after we part.

"Do you always feel that way?" I ask apprehensive.

"Not really. I don't know what came over me," he says frustrated.

"I know." He raises an eyebrow in confusion. "Everything that happened yesterday opened up old wounds and you felt insecure, but honey no matter what happens my love for you will never change. I promise you."