Heart Wants What It Wants - SANDHIR current shot ❤️

Part 39

"You know it's hard to remember,
The people we used to be..
But it's even harder to picture,
That you're not here next to me!"
-Payphone,Maroon 5

"I don't know why I'm even feeling sorry looking at you cry. I shouldn't. You brought this on. You lied ..you made me fall for you even more everyday" Aryan was now yelling.. Then he held her tightly by her arms trying to lift her up "look me in the eye and tell me ? What are we ? "

"Aryan you know how much you mean to me! You know you're important. !!"she said helplessly bearing the pain he was inflicting emotionally and physically. "I'm important? So that's what you do with the important people in your life ? You lie to them. You manipulate them? Into believing you're this other kind of person when you're so not!!?"

And it hurt. It hurt her so bad. First Randhir and now Aryan. Why did they both feel so strongly that she was manipulative? Why was it that when she wanted to protect the people she loved ,it always ended up badly. She landed up hurting those same people even more than she could imagine. How did she manage to ruin all the special relationships of her life?

"What kind? I only did it because I didn't want anything to do with my past. And I didn't want my present to be impacted by anything of the past ..and.." Aryan didn't let her complete. He pushed her until she hit the door and squeezed her arms a bit to emphasise on his words ...

"You're past is something you can't run from. Specially a love like that. Do you not see it? You love him. You told me once you weren't ready for a relationship. Guess what- it's Randhir. And you'll never be ready. You know what led us to even start looking for stuff ? It was YOU and Him. And the Way you'll behaved!!"

"Us??" She mumbled..clearly understanding everything except that word! And he again looked at her like he couldn't believe it. She wasn't even denying the other major sentences he spoke!! "Shanaya and I." He said like it was the most obvious thing in the world!!

And that's when it hit her. Shit. Was that what was going on inside? Was that the reason Randhir sounded like he would cry. Was that the reason for those aggressive bangs? "Don't tell me she's confronting him right now!!!" She spoke fearfully looking at Aryan hoping he would just say no.

She would stand this. She could bear the hate, she could accept her fault and stand there explaining till Aryan heard her! But he wouldn't. He wouldn't stand there and take Shanaya's taunts. He would hate that anybody meddled with his past. He wouldn't stand there with his head hung low answering her questions. He just wouldn't be calm.

And what was worse. She knew he would hate her more now. For ruining the relationship he had with Shanaya. She was his blame cushion. She knew it was coming..after he'd cool off from Shanaya.. It would just notch his hatred up for Sanyukta. And THAT hate ,she didn't know if she could stand anymore of that...

"Tell me Aryan?! Is she??He won't. He can't take it! Don't ..why him?!!!!" She said clutching his sweater. "You'll both could've asked me! Why Randhir? He won't even look at me now ..why did you'll do this!!" She cried into his chest and if it hadn't dawned upon Aryan yet ..this was his moment of complete realisation.

She cared. About What Randhir felt about her. It mattered to this day, if he didn't look at her. Her world wasn't her's unless Randhir was in it.
It made her insides turn restlessly if a day went by when Randhir didn't talk to her.
It never mattered what they spoke,only the fact that they did converse.
That would pull her through the day.
These two years she wasn't living cz there was no one to make her want to.
That no matter how much she liked Aryan or cared for him or went out of her way to do something for him, Randhir would always be the one she thought about every night before bed and every morning after she woke up.

"You say it's too late to make it
But is it too late to try?
And in our time that you wasted
All of our bridges burned down"