what's left?

chapter 10: breaking

park eun wons pov:

as those words rolled out of his mouth i felt a sharp pain in my chest like my heart was actually hurting i looked at him and said "i will never be able to forget you Kim namjoon even if i wanted to" he looked at me like he was worried i have no idea why because i should be the worried one here i know for sure he will forget me I'm easily forgotten he tried wrapping his jacket around me like he did the first time we met i said "namjoon...stop" he said "what?" i replied in a demanding tone "stop it namjoon i wont forget you but taking me back to where we first met and trying to do the same things will only make it worse for the both of us namjoon i love you okay and i tried escaping that feeling for so long but i couldn't its like we barely met and you are already leaving me i love you namjoon and i promise i will not forget you but you have to promise the same thing" he looked at me and stood up he pulled me up and took me into a long embrace he just held me and said "i couldn't forget you even if i wanted to" then he said "i need to show you something but dont be hurt okay no one knows this about me not even my dad im hoping to get farther with it in america" he pulled out a bunch of folded papers and handed them to me they sounded like song lyrics i read one of them it said

"nan sesangeseo jagigyebal seoga jeirsilheo
ireohge jeoreohge haran gaesorideul
da jutdaen eoptgo nammareun jar mideo
geuronikka geu gaesorideuli beseuteuselleo
gyaenedeuri neoe daehae mueoseur alji
neoui kkum neoui chwimi, ihaereur hani?
nunchiman deor bwado bakkwineun geon cham manhji
juineuro taeeona wae noyega doeryeo hani
'apeunikka cheongchunida'
geuttan wiheomhan jeonguiga jeir munjeya
salmeseo jangreuneun deoc, machi eumakcheoreom
geogi eolkmaeineun sungan babo doenikka
Fuck that. You the only one ever
wanbyeokhajin anhado hanjeongpan lego
chapi nugungan neor tamnaege dwaeisseo
geunikka, neon geunyang neoreur haejwo- do you"

i looked at him and asked what it was he took the paper from me and started to rap like seriously rap the lyrics on the paper i was looking at him lose himself in the lyrics i was watching him in amazement when he finished i was amazed he looked at me and said "what do you think?" i said "i...im speechless namjoon that was amazing!" he said "thanks" then looked down he looked back up at me and said "come on i have to take you home before it gets too late" i said "okay" i stood up and so did he he took my hand and we started walking to my house it was about a 15 minute walk when we got to my door step he looked at me i didnt want to let go of his hand i turned to my door and then saw him walk away before i knocked i ran to him and hugged him from behind he turned around and hugged me back he hugged me tight and i said "i love you namjoon" he stayed quiet for a minute and then said "i love you too eun won... dont forget" then he kisses the top of my head he let me go and i smiled then walked away i knocked on my door and my mom answered she hugged me then kissed my cheek she said "your dad has no idea about this so say you went on a school trip" i didnt say anything then walked passed he and went up to my room i got out my phone and turned on my music i was wanting to go to sleep but i couldn't not until i heard his voice again i was just wishing he was holding me so my breaking heart wouldn't hurt so much