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chapter 30: should have (mixed pov)

Namjoon's pov:

i woke up earlier than expected and needed but the first thing i looked at was Park Eun Won she for once looked peaceful when she was awake she always looked sad or worried or confused but now she looked none of the above and it made me feel relieved because for once the expression on her face didn't make me worry i got up and stretched  i went to restroom washed my hands then took a shower then washed my face i put on a black tee shirt combed out my hair god this hair was hard to take care of i put on my pants i walked back into my room and laid down for a bit i got my phone and again looked at my screen saver but this time i was thinking "things were so different back then it was so perfect... i wish they could get back to they way it was" i got up again put my phone in my pocket i walked to the kitchen and realized i can't cook so i just sat on the couch i heard something coming from one of the rooms but whatever i just ignored it i turned on the TV a couple minuets later the bathroom door closed i guess it was one of the members Park Eun Won would never wake up this early I changed the channel and saw all of big bang on there so i watched it taehyung came out i said "morning" he said "morning" i looked back at the tv he sat next to me and watched it too in the next hour or so everyone was awake jin of course started cooking breakfast we all ate he made a plate for Park Eun Won and covered it with saran wrap which was nice of him we all ate then headed out to the photo shoot place i wanted to see her before i left but she must have been tired we got in our van and turned on music.

Park Eun Wons pov:

i woke up i didn't hear anything but whatever i rushed to the bathroom and took a shower put on my clothes and washed my face brushed my teeth and hair then blow dried my hair and straightened it i know i was just going to be sitting around all day but i still didn't want to look like crap these boys were insanely handsome i walked out aaaaaand i did all that for nothing they were already gone i looked at the table and there was a plate of food that said "morning noona i made this cause we would have already left when you wake up eat a lot!! - jin" i smiled sat down and ate  it it was really good better than whatever i could cook i finished and looked around and i barely realized how messy it was in this place there was trash every where and too many dirty dishes there was socks on the floor and couches i got up put on some socks and started washing the dishes after i finished with that i started cleaning the living room i got a clothes basket and picked up all the clothes i went into namjoon's room and picked up all the dirty clothes in there too i was about to go into another room but i was afraid they would get mad i went in there so i texted namjoon "i said hey im cleaning would everyone else be okay of i picked up the clothes in their rooms ?" while i was waiting for his response i picked all the trash around the house my phone buzzed i took it out from my pocket it was namjoon he said "i asked all of them they said it was fine and you don't have to clean its okay" i said "okay and yeah i do it looked like you haven't cleaned for 6 months" he said "sounds accurate" i found a blue tooth speaker i was happy so i could turn my music super loud and clean my room at the same time i turned on my music i had a lot of bigbang and shinee and a lot of other stuff suddenly i felt better about cleaning since i had music i finished the living room quite fast i turned the music louder since i was going further into the dorm i opened the door to the first room i started cleaning it wasn't that dirty cleaner than i expected i already cleaned namjoons room so that was one less room to clean bu the room i was cleaning just had some clothes on the floor he had a lot of Mario collectables that was it then i moved to the next room it was really messy like trash every where clothes everywhere bed messy old food cups i cleaned it and cleaned everyone else room i was done in about 3 hours i sat in the living room namjoon texted me and said "hey my manager wants me to be roommates with someone and we are gonna stay longer okay we have to shoot another music video we will be back in a couple hours feel free to do whatever dorm is yours" i got dressed i got a taxi and went back to my house to pick up some stuff i left my key under a plant i got it then went inside i went into my room and packed some more stuff i went to my desk and saw me and namjoons Polaroid picture it was in the middle of the desk i guess namjoon was looking at it when he came over i just sat and looked at it all i could think was "why can't we just go back maybe i should leave i can't be distracting him or them dammit i have to go i can't stay there"i left my bag there and packed everything i have i went back to the door and packed everything of mine i left a note for all of them i put....