what's left?

chapter 4: still in love...

namjoons pov:

i didn't believe her when she said she fell but i played it off cause i didn't know for sure. i put my earbuds back in and then a song called "eyes,nose,lips" by taeyang started to play and i felt as if i was about to cry cause it reminded me of my ex-girlfriend the girl who broke my heart but i didn't let myself cry i started to lip sync the song because i knew it so well i started to think of all the things she did to me she cheated she lied she fucked with my feelings she left me so many times she used me and i asked myself "why do i still love her i treated her with nothing but respect and i got shit in return but yet i still love her so much....why? the bell rang for first period i walked pass my 4th period class and saw eun won sitting down by a window and looking out a window i couldn't tell if she was crying or if she was just in deep thought either way i didn't want to disturb her so i just walked passed i sat down and put my head down i never pay attention anyways i just listen to music and go to sleep i was thinking about hwa-young which was my ex i was thinking about her beautiful smile and her soft skin and her voice and well just her the day went on then i went home as usual i walked across the park and i didn't see eun won there today i guess she only goes there when she needs to get away for a bit i went home and i saw my dad sitting on the couch with his usual half bottle of vodka and cigarette he looked at me and got up and hugged me and said "hey how was school" in a sort of wobbly voice I'm guessing cause he was drunk i smiled and said "good" he hugged me i hugged him back and he messed up my hair and said "that's good"  i walked up to my room and then he said "let me know when your hungry you've been looking very skinny these days" i said okay and kept walking i haven't been eating much and been sleeping alot ever since hwa-young left me just sad i guess i took a shower then fell asleep hoping everything would be okay soon