what's left?

chapter 21: decisions

Park Eun Wons POV:

2 months later

I don't even know why i still have hope for Namjoon and I hes not going to be back for a very long time and it's not like he's going to be back any earlier and he would have defiantly moved on by then even if he says he wont i know he will but what if he doesn't and i do what if I'm the one to break his heart what if i fall for Lee Shin again UGH i don't know there are so many questions and i don't know the answer to any of them i miss Namjoon so much and there is nothing i can do about it im already 18 years old i just got a job and im saving up for my own place since my parents are basically rushing me out of here i should be out soon i should probably start looking for a new house or apartment i got in my moms old car the one she let me have it has a lot of problems but whatever as long as it works i don't care i drove around looking at the cheapest looking houses first and saw if any had a "for rent" or "for sale" sign i found about 3 then i started looking at apartments i found about 5 i had my little note pad with me and i wrote down the addresses and phone numbers i had the money so when i got home i called all of them there was only 1 house and 2 apartments i could afford so i started to look at the pros and cons

pros for house: more space, i can have a pet, a back yard and i can decorate

cons: i will have to pay more, yard maintenance

pros for a apartment: no yard maintenance, less money for rent

cons for apartment: more people around me, less space for my things

after a couple of hours of thinking i decided on the house but i just need to save up 100 more dollars and i can rent it maybe when Namjoon comes back we can live together no no no stop i can't get my hopes up...