what's left?

chapter 31: bright

Namjoons pov:

i was worried sick i had no idea if she was okay i wanted to see her so bad but she didn't want me to i...why am i such a fool. AGH I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO maybe i should just call my dad and ask him for advice he always knows what to say i got up out of bed and took a shower i sat on my couch and just lost myself in my thoughts again i wonder if she has eaten i hope she had enough sleep last night i wonder if she is moving should i text her no i can't then for some reason i started getting mad like really mad ugh what the fuck is wrong with me i still love her is that why I'm mad no is it cause she still worries me Love and farewell they're all just whatever.i shouldn't care so much ugh i need to call my dad i got my phone

*someone knocks on door* the hell who is this i open the door only to see the exact man i needed right now my dad i said "APPA" in a very ecstatic tone a huge smile shot onto my face as soon as i saw him i hugged him immediately i heard foot steps coming towards us but i didn't care i just stayed hugging him we let go i said "APPA WHEN DID YOU GET HERE HOW HAVE YOU BEEN HOW ARE YOU HAVE YOU PUT OUT ANY SONGS YET OH MY GOD I MISSED YOU SO MUCH" i hugged him again he hugged me back we let go again

he laughed and said "slow down there champ i got here a couple hours ago I'm only here for the night i have to go back in the morning I've been pretty good and still am just missed you a whole lot and no not yet but soon and i missed you too kiddo" he looked over my shoulder and said "wanna introduce me to your friend i smiled and said "oh yeah okay so" i pointed to taehyung and said "that is kim taehyung you can call him V" i pointed to jungkook and said "that is jeon jungkook just call him jungkook" i pointed to jin and sad "that is kim seokjin just call him jin" then i pointed to j-hope i said "that is jung hoseok call him j-hope" i pointed to suga and and said "that is min yoongi we usually call him yooni or suga we call him suga cause he is pale and sweet" i pointed to jimin and said "and that's park jimin just call him jimin" they all walked up to my dad and become different people for a second they were all speaking formally and being well not stupid and loud we all sat on the couch

i sat next to my dad

jin said "you guys are very close"

my dad said "yup ever since he was a little boy" then my dad put me in a head lock not tight or anything just playful he ruffled my hair and said "my little joonie is all grown up now" all my members laughed i sat my up after he let go

he said "sorry just missed you kiddo"

i said "no it's okay i miss that"

then i said "uh..dad"

he said "yeah kiddo?"

i said "can we step outside"

he said "sure"

we went outside and sat down

he said "what's up?"

i told him everything and i cried i didn't think i would but i did he hugged me and he said

"joonie stop crying i hate seeing you like this namjoon if it's meant to be then no matter what happens you two will end up together if it isn't then your destiny is with someone else you just need to wait and namjoon you have the chance of a life time you got this one chance for this career you need to focus on this for now this is an amazing thing and you need to take advantage of it I'm not saying to forget cause i know that can be hard but I'm saying set it aside for now you know i love you namjoon and i hate seeing you cry it hurts me a lot"

i tried to stop but i couldn't them my dad started singing he has a nice voice

Sarangdo ibyeoldo
Da geujeo geureon irirago.
I don't care.
It's okay.
Nan honjain naega iksukhae.

Chagawotdeon naega,
Gamjeong eopdeon naega
Yojeum deureo jogeum isanghae.
Yoksim manheun naega,
Igijeogin naega
Nareul jogeumssik beorige dwae.

Wonhaetdeon geoseun da gajyeotjiman
Pillyohaetdeon geoseun gajil su eobseotdeon na.

Nuneul garideon manheun yoksimdo
Sone gadeukhan igisimdo
Neoege ganeun gire modeun geol
Beorigo.
Jinannareun beorigo.

Gaseum apawatdeon sangcheodeuldo
Sum makhige haetdeon gieokdo
Neoege ganeun gire modeun geol
Beorigo.

Nunmuldo naji anko.
Heullil siganjocha eopdago.
i wont stop.
Anymore.
Ijen oeroumdo iksukhae.

Malhaewatdeon naega
Sen cheok hadeon naega
Yojeum deureo jogeum isanghae.
Yoksim manheun naega
Igijeogin naega
Nareul jogeumssik beorige dwae.

Wonhaetdeon geoseun da gajyeotjiman
Pillyohaetdeon geoseun gajil su eobseotdeon na.

Nuneul garideon manheun yoksimdo
Sone gadeukhan igisimdo
Neoege ganeun gire modeun geol
Beorigo.
Jinannareun beorigo.

Gaseum apawatdeon sangcheodeuldo
Sum makhige haetdeon gieokdo
Neoege ganeun gire modeun geol
Beorigo.

Neo eobsin uimi eobseo.
Neo eobsin naega eobseo.
Sesangeul beoryeodo nae ane neoman namgimyeon dwae.
Baby, i will never let you go.

Nuneul garideon manheun yoksimdo
Sone gadeukhan igisimdo
Neoege ganeun gire modeun geol
Beorigo.
Jinannareun beorigo.

Gaseum apawatdeon sangcheodeuldo
Sum makhige haetdeon gieokdo
Neoege ganeun gire modeun geol
Beorigo.

Love and farewell
they're all just whatever.
I don't care.
It's okay.
I'm used to me alone.

I used to be cold, I used to be emotionless,
but I'm feeling a bit strange these days.
I used to be greedy, I used to be selfish,
but I'm starting to let it go.

Got everything I wanted,
but couldn't get the things I needed.

The greed that covered my eyes,
the selfishness that filled my hands,
I'm letting it all go on my way to you.
Throwing out my past.

The wounds that hurt my heart,
the suffocating memories,
I'm letting it all go on my way to you.

No more tears fall,
I don't even have the time for it.
"I won't stop.
Anymore.
I'm used to the loneliness."

I used to say that, I used to act tough,
but I'm feeling a bit strange these days.
I used to be greedy, I used to be selfish,
but I'm starting to let it go.

Got everything I wanted,
but couldn't get the things I needed.

The greed that covered my eyes,
the selfishness that filled my hands,
I'm letting it all go on my way to you.
Throwing out my past.

The wounds that hurt my heart,
the suffocating memories,
I'm letting it all go on my way to you.

Without you it's meaningless,
Without you there is no me.
I can throw away the world and be fine with you in my heart.
Baby, I will never let you go.

The greed that covered my eyes,
the selfishness that filled my hands,
I'm letting it all go on my way to you.
Throwing out my past.

The wounds that hurt my heart,
the suffocating memories,
I'm letting it all go on my way to you.~let go taeyang

my dad used to sing that song to me when i was a kid and i was sad or something i stopped crying i was so happy he was here with me we went back inside and we sat back down then jimin said "excuse me sir the manager gave us some money so we could treat you to a meal would you like to go?" i looked at him very happy he sadi "sure lets go" we all got in the van and went to eat korean BBQ we all ate a lot jimin got the money out my dad stopped him and sadi "mmmm i don't think so you all can use that money AT THE ARCADE I RENTED OUT FOR ALL OF YOU" we all cheered we all thanked him i said "dad you didn't have to" he said "i know but i wanted to do something for my son and his little friends before i left" we left and went to the arcade it was so much fun me and my dad played the games wit guns and jimin and j hope played basketball jin and v played ski ball and jungkook and suga played guitar hero we all went home worn out my dad slept on the couch i slept in my normal room it suddenly seemed bright again